Damaged / ℂ𝕠𝕞𝕡𝕝𝕖𝕥𝕖𝕕 /

Seventy - Six

We were sitting in my dorm nervously waiting for Noah to come back and then he stormed in.

He had tears over his face and his face was red "You fucking knew!?" He cracked out at Isa "W-What?" She asked him confused "That's why you are fucking staying there for Christmas! And you didn't fucking tell me!" He yelled at her as the tears stream down his face.

"Noah, baby calm down" I said quietly taking his shaking hands in mine as he cried shakily "Tell us, what happened?" I whispered wiping his tears softly.

What has got him like this?

"It-its Rick he is dying" He cried out, what? "And she fucking knew!" He cried out pointing at Isa.

"Noah he told me he didn't want you to know, it wasn't mine to tell, okay?" Isa explained "He is my dad too" He sobbed.

Isa came and pulled him into a hug so we were all three in a hug but I pulled back slowly so they could have their moment.

"I know he is your dad too, but he knew this was going to hurt you so he didn't want too" She said quietly as Noah sobbed in her neck.

"I'm so sorry I treated you guys like pieces of shit, it wasn't your fault that I got treated how I was and..." He sobbed, Isa held him tightly "If you would've said that two months ago I would still call you an asshole" She joked.

He pulled back chuckling "That's why you took my collar, with my mom in it?" "Yeah, you were being an asshole"

That's why she stole it? It was his mom.

"I know it's going to be hard, but please just know that I'm here, and Ava is here too" She said taking my wrist pulling me closer "I'm here for both of you" I said quietly.

After Noah calmed down a little, Isa went back to Rick's and we were left alone, he was laying on the bed staring at the ceiling.

"He took me in at a pancake place, because I was beaten up and I looked hungry" He quietly said.

"I'm always going to remember him coming at night while I had a dream to come cuddle with me holding me tightly in his arms while he rocked me" He whispered "And I never even took it for granted" He cracked out  "All I could ever do was blame him for the emptiness I was feeling inside and for the times I got angry for whatever the reason was" He whispered.

"Noah he understands what you went through, you cant blame yourself for th-" "He never fucking did anything wrong in his life why would this happen to him? God damn it" He said sitting up "Baby please..." I whispered at him.

"No, it should've been me Ava, I should've of got something in my brain instead of him, he doesn't deserve this, all he ever does is help everybody around him while I'm fucking up everyone's life" He sighed rubbing his eyes.

"He was always there for me, literally always" He whispered.

I pulled him into a hug and he immediately hugged back.

"It's not too late, you know that, right?" I whispered "What do you mean? The years passed" "You can make up for the lost time" I whispered in his ear.

"What about you?" He said quietly "Noah, I know you need this, forget about me, okay? I will be fine, go on a long vacation with him and Isa and make up for the time you've lost" I kissed his forehead.

Am I telling him to leave me? Yes.

"I-I don't think I could say goodbye to you" He whispered "It won't be a goodbye, just a see you later, baby" I reassured him.

He nodded "I will talk with him about it" He whispered, I nodded.

"I'll miss you, you know?" I smiled at him "You can't get a new boyfriend" He muttered "I won't get a new boyfriend" I chuckled quietly.

"Promise?" He whispered "Promise" I whispered back "And don't get close to Ethan" He said still setting rules "Noah" I whined "What?" "I don't want to get close to Ethan" I chuckled.

He hugged me tightly "I'm really going to miss you" He whispered brushing the hair off of my face "We will see each other again" I whispered.

"Yes but we will probably be at our home town till he passes" He whispered "I know" I smiled a bit at him.

He nodded "I love you so much" He whispered "I love you too baby, I always will love you and I hope you know that"

"I do"