Damaged / ℂ𝕠𝕞𝕡𝕝𝕖𝕥𝕖𝕕 /

Seventy - Four

Where is he? After he stormed out, there was a huge fight between his father and his wife and Rick.

I called him but he didn't answer his phone, I was sitting on the couch worriedly bouncing my leg as I was waiting for my phone to ring any moment for him apologizing saying he is coming back but it didn't sound.

It didn't sound and it was killing me, where did he go? What did he do? Is he okay?

"Ava he will be fine, I know he will" Rick sighed rubbing my back "No, you dont understand, he was all about I was here because I pity him and all angry because he thought I didn't love him anymore and I should've just said it back or kiss him or whatever" I cracked out.

"Isa told me what happened in between the two of you after the huge fight, I'm sorry he did that to you and you are completely right about not forgiving him right away and putting your trust back in him" He sighed rubbing my back.

I took deep shaky breaths and then my phone rang "Is it Noah?" He asked, I picked it up only to see Justin's contact show up.

"Justin?" I asked confused "Heeeyyy! We are having a little problem over here" He slurred out as I heard loud music blast through the phone also along with the voice.

"What?" I asked him confused "Your boyfriend showed up and he sort of started taking coke and more stuff" He laughed out "Noah dude stop you will get into a fucking coma" he laughed out "Leave me the fuck alone" I heard his voice.

He is doing coke? "I'm coming over" I sighed putting the phone down "Found him, I will be back" I said taking my coat "Need a drive?" Isa asked, I nodded "Yeah, thanks" I smiled at her walking out with her yelling a soft goodbye at Rick.

I got in the car "Isa, did you know Noah did coke?' I muttered looking out the window "I um... saw him a couple of times but I thought he cut that out" She sighed.

"Guess he didn't" I muttered, before I knew it we were there and I was standing in front of Justin's house, I took a deep breath, expecting what I was going to see already but not completely ready.

I got in and started searching the crowd and my eyes immediately fell on him laughing with Justin, he actually looks happy for once.

I sighed walking to them and his eyes fell on me "Babyyy! You got invited" He laughed out hugging me "Noah, are you on drugs?" I asked him worriedly.

His eyes widened "Baby, I would never" He snickered, I rolled my eyes at his obvious lie taking his face in my hand, by his cheeks looking into his dilated pupils, he looked into mine.

"Are you?" He laughed, I let go off of his face "Noah" I sighed "Ava" He smirked.

Then Lucas came with a joint in his hand passing it to Justin and from Justin to Noah.

He put it in between his lips and inhaled, "Stop" I muttered, 10 seconds passed when he passed it back to Lucas coming up to me pushing me against the sticky counter.

"You don't fucking get to tell me what to do" He hissed "You are drunk, and high" I sighed "Let's just go home" I tried "But baby, the party has just begun" He smirked disappearing in the crowd.

I groaned walking after him, once I reached him I took his hand but he yanked away grabbing my face just like I grabbed his a couple of minutes ago "Don't fucking test me right now" He spat pushing me back a little.

I gasped bumping into Justin that was behind me "Noah please stop it" I sighed "Why are you doing this?" I yelled over the music.

"Why aren't you? Your life is shit right? You have a fucking boyfriend that is damaged, I am fucking insane, did you know I was going to kill him back there? All I could do was imagining how I bashed his head against the table till his fucking brains spat out across the fucking baked potatoes on his plate, and his eyes pop out of his face" He screamed at me.

I stood there dumbfounded staring at him at his specific detailed way he was thinking of ending his own father's life "I understand!" I yelled back "No you fucking dont!" He screamed on top of his lungs making the music stop and everyone was looking at us.

Really? Did they really just put the music down to hear our fight?

I stood quiet afraid to say something to get him more angry and lash out in front of everyone.

"But I'm on the edge of breaking, right? You should just fucking stop fixing me! You think I'm this fucking little hurt bird that you can cure by kissing it's broken wing but I'm not fucking hurt, I am how I am and there is no fixing me!" He yelled at me.

"Noah-" "The only way you will see me break is killing someone, I will not cry on your feet pleading you to help me" He laughed out, you were a couple of days ago. I thought.

"I don't expect you to not be mad at me, I promise you I didn't just stay because I was afraid of you breaking" I said softly looking around awkwardly as Justin yelled 'put the music back on you dick"

"All I wanted was for you to forgive me" He muttered out coming closer "I-I know" I answered him getting nervous as he came really close to me.

"Why don't you forgive me?" He mumbled against my lips basically "I already did Noah, I just did" I whispered slowly saying the truth.

I know he is under drugs and I know he was saying nonsense about his father or whatever he wanted, but I knew he loved me, I knew it all along but I was just too caught up with myself to realize that I took the whole process of forgiving me too long. Ruining us.

Ruining both of us.

Before I knew it we were walking out the party walking my way to my dorm "I'm sorry-" I began "Shh" He just muttered concentrated, was he lost?

I pulled him to the other direction because he was going the wrong way, he let out a chuckle but followed me, we walked into the building and once we were in the room he slammed me against the door.

I gasped at the sudden pleasure of him biting down my neck probably making huge bruises but I couldn't care less, I felt the heat build up in between my legs as I grabbed his hair.

He groaned as his lips crashed into mine, I immediately kissed him back missing these moments.

The passionate angry moments.

He rushed us to the bed pulling my shirt of kissing down my breasts going down to my stomach taking off my pants quickly.

He looked up at me smirking and I knew what he was going to do next, I felt his tongue against my sensitive area making me moan out loud at the sudden pleasure rushing through my body.

I arched my back as his tongue was moving rhythmically against me, and then I felt him pushing two fingers into me, I gasped screwing my eyes shut as he pumped his fingers into me.

"Noah" I moaned quietly, he moaned a bit as I kept on moaning his name out repeatedly as I felt the tension build in my stomach.

I felt legs stretch automatically and my toes curling as I knew I was already reaching cloud nine.

I started shaking as I got to my climax, basically screaming out his name as his other hand that wasn't pumping into me was grabbing my hips as if I was running away.

Once I got a back to reality, recovering my breath, he laid next to me with his head on my chest rubbing circles on my tummy breathing heavy.

"Happy new year baby" He rasped out.