Damaged / ℂ𝕠𝕞𝕡𝕝𝕖𝕥𝕖𝕕 /

Forty - Six

I woke up from my phone buzzing, I groaned looking at it, a text from my dad? Oh, that he booked my tickets to go home for Christmas, I sent him a thank you and laid my phone down.

"Who was it?" Noah mumbled, I chuckled "Just my dad, saying he booked my tickets for Christmas" I said, he opened his eyes "You're leaving?" He asked me "Yeah... why?" I asked him confused.

"Oh, okay" He smiled not convincing me "Goodmorning" I whispered kissing his cheek, he closed his eyes as my lips touched his cheek making me smile "You really are different" I mumbled, he put his arms around my waist pulling me closer.

"I told you that I would try, didn't I?" He mumbled in my hair, I smiled looking up at him "I.." I started saying but cut myself off "What?" He whispered "I like you Noah" I mumbled, even if it's not what I wanted to say, I mean it.

He smiled again leaning in and pecked my lips, I sighed relaxing in his lap as he started playing with my hair, I could get used to this.

"Ava, what would you say if we... gave it a try?" He awkwardly said "give what a try?" I asked confused "Us" he mumbled, I looked in his eyes "You're asking me to be your girlfriend?" I gasped sitting up, he nodded slowly.

I smiled "Of course I would like to try" I said kissing him "But..." he started "No one has to know" I whispered before he could say it, he smiled "I just dont want Ethan to find out" He sighed

"He's out to fuck with me" He said "Why?" I asked confused "I kind of fucked his girlfriend, well, ex now" He simply said, I frowned "Sorry" He mumbled, I sighed looking down "Did you sleep with the whole campus?" I asked him awkwardly.

He didn't answer me, when I looked at him he was staring at me, not knowing what to say "Nevermind" I muttered already knowing the answer "Nobody is as good as you" He whispered taking my hands "Why would you sleep with all these girls?"

"For fun, Ava" "Is that why you sleep with me?" I frowned "Oh come on, we both know I dont sleep with you for fun anymore" He whispered "Anymore" I chuckled sarcastically.

He groaned "Ava, fuck, I'm trying here okay?" He said starting to get pissed off "I need to know, okay?" I snapped too, he rolled his eyes getting up "where are you going?" I groaned "To the bathroom, dont worry I have no girl in there" He snapped and slammed the door.

Good going Ava, 2 seconds in your first relationship and you managed to piss your boyfriend off, boyfriend...

I got up and walked down the hall to get a glass of water "So you're together?" I heard Rick's voice making me jump, he laughed "sorry" he smiled.

I sat down by the counter with my glass of water "He never brought a girl home, you know?" He said quietly, I looked at him "He seems happy" He smiled a bit "Yeah, he smiles" I said awkwardly.

"Sorry I didn't mean to make you uncomfortable, I just wanted you to know that even if you dont see a difference in him, I do" He smiled, I nodded drinking all the water walking back to his room.

Not a month ago he said I had to stay away from Noah or I'd get my heart broken and now he's saying I'm making him happy?

Noah walked in the room again "Sorry" we said at the same time, I chuckled as he sat down on the bed with me "I promise you that you are special and I'm not touching a girl again okay?" He nodded, I gave him a small nod.

"I'm sorry it's just... you are my first, you know? And you have slept with so so many girls and I just dont know how to compete-" "Ava, you dont need to compete" He said stroking my cheek "Those girls, I used them, because I was bored or angry or whatever" He sighed.

"And I know that it's a dick move and I'm sorry, but most of the girls just wanted sex, just like me" He kept explaining "And you were the first time someone touched my hair, or gave me a hickey, or even kissed my neck, touched my chest... saw my chest" he mumbled.

"Why?" I softly said as I got closer to him, he pulled his shirt out and took my hand placing my hands right on his round scars wincing slowly "It stings" He said shakily "It's like you open up the wound again, like you're  burning me again" He whispered.

I looked at him but my vision was blurried by the tears, he then took my hand kissing it and turned around showing his back for the first time I could completely see it bare, I started at it.

It was full of round scars just like his chest, but it was a little worse, I could see scars from nails that dugged in his skin, it's where I touch him and he asks me not too.

"What are this?" I cracked out "The almost worst scar I have on my body, its where they grabbed me..." He whispered "Oh my God" I cried out covering my mouth, he turned around immediately pulling me into a hug.

"What is your worst scar?" I cried out looking him in the eyes, he looked at me with tears in his eyes by now "show me, please, I want to know" "The worst scar isn't visible" He whispered.

I sniffled looking at him giving my hand back at him so he would place it where it was, he took it slowly and carefully putting my hand over his chest just where his heart was.

"Here is my worst scar"