Damaged / ℂ𝕠𝕞𝕡𝕝𝕖𝕥𝕖𝕕 /

Fifty - Seven

"Don't say such nonsense" I sighed sitting down on the bed "I'm serious" He said sitting down on the floor in front of me "You're not" I chuckled.

"Ava please just stay, okay?" He pleaded again "Noah I feel like I need to go, I just have this feeling in me that says I will never forgive myself if I dont go" I tried to explain "So you would drop me for something like that?" "For my future?" I said.

"You don't get it!" He yelled at me standing up by now, I got up too "No, you are the one that doesn't get it! I won't be another one of your girls that you fuck and leave broken without anything, I do have friends that aren't around to have sex with me and I don't need you to continue with my future" I cracked out "W-What?" He asked confused.

"I'm sorry Noah, but I just need some time, okay? I need space away from this place... from... you" I whispered.

"I will buy you a house out of campus and I will keep my distance" He quickly said "You can't" "But I can" Noah said nodding.

I sighed "You promise you stay away from me?" "Yes" Noah nodded, I sighed sitting down on my bed "Prove it" I said, he nodded and walked out.

In case you are wondering, I don't know what I'm doing either, I just figured that if he can stay away from me that long, he won't be having such a bad time when I really leave him.

Noah's P.O.V

"She is leaving and it's your fault" Justin said as we were hanging at his dorm "I still don't get why you had to go and say that" Lucas sighed.

"I'm having a bad time too, okay? I tried but she doesn't want to stay, I promised I would keep my distance" I muttered.

"I kind of invited her" Justin panicked "What!?" I groaned getting up quickly "She won't come" Lucas sighed and then there was a knock on the door.

Justin opened the door and Ava stood there with a box of spaghetti "Um, hi?" She said, I walked to the door to leave "You can stay, just... don't look at me like you always do" She mumbled.

I nodded sitting back down, Isa walked in too, shortly after, the room was filled with the same people that were just in Avas dorm a week ago.

I could see Ava was uncomfortable but I tried not to look at her "So, how did the game end?" Ethan smirked breaking the awkward silence "Ethan fucking let her be" I snapped "Woops" He rolled his eyes sitting back.

"Why is nobody talking?" Isa chuckled "Because there is this tension in the air, I don't know what it could be" Lana said looking at Ava, she bit her lip glancing at me "I'm going to go" Ava said getting up, I got up touching her shoulder "No, you don't have to" I said softly making her sit down again.

"Everyone that is just here to get to us, fuck off, now, you the first" I said pointing at Lana, she gasped and got up, when she got to the door she turned around to wink at me, ugh, disgusting, how could I even sleep with someone like that? I mean she is hot, but she is a total bitch.

"Well, let's just hang" I said sitting back down "I'm the owner so I can speak, it kind off is awkward, but I think Noah should go" Justin smirked, I glared at him "It's not awkward, we are, umm" I said awkwardly "Friends" Ava quickly said, I looked at her and she smiled awkwardly back.

We started to talk about the professors and just the parties they were throwing here, while Ava and Isa were talking, well, Isa did the talking while Ava just sat there and pretended that she listened.

Then someone cleared their throat, Ava was looking back at me, well, everyone was.

"What? Sorry" I mumbled "I should probably go" I said getting up taking my jacket and walking out.

When I got home Rick was sitting at the table "You made a mess, again" Rick said pissed "Sorry I was mad" I said sitting down next to him.

"You can't destroy everything just because you are mad" He sighed "I'm trying to work on that, I'm going to be better now, starting with you" I mumbled looking at him "She really wants to leave Noah, and I think you should let her" Rick said.

"She really doesn't want too, she just wants things to get better, so I will" I mumbled "You hurt her" He sighed "For fucks sake I know" I snapped, he looked at me, I groaned "This is going to be hard" I muttered getting up.

"Noah?" He asked me, I looked at him "I really hope we could finally get to know each other and trust each other" He whispered, I forced a smile and walked into my room.

I've never felt guilt about anything and now everything I do makes me feel guilty, I can't even look at a girl no more thinking she is hot because that would be hurting Ava's feelings.

I just dont know what to do anymore for her not to leave me, but she wont leave, I know she wont.

She cant, because I love her and she loves me, I will give her time so she can forgive me for the stupid mistake I made and then we are going to be fine, I just need to fight for her.

That's what any girl wants, right? For a man to fight for her, well I will.

And I would rather give up on myself than give up Ava, I'm lost anyways.