His lips parted from yours slowly and you opened your eyes again, returning to reality. A much colder place than he had taken you with his soft lips, the sensation of which had erased all thoughts in your head and had replaced them with a pause that made everything feel right. Everything that in your logical state of mind you would consider unwanted, when your feelings took over you, they bacame wanted. Your mind knows well, oh so well, that he and anything related to him is a big no but there was no denying the fact that your feelings didn't agree with your thoughts. No matter how much you try to hide that fact. He was right, You wanted him as much as he appears to want you and this attraction was more than dangerous. It was also forbidden.
"Jimin" You called his name as his face was still at a close proximity from yours and his eyes were lost in your own as if he was trying to find something in you that your lips weren't saying. What was it that he wanted to hear? You wondered for a second but at the same time you had a thought of what it may have been however there was no way you would admit out loud that you wanted him.
"What is it Y/N?" He asked you as his thumb softly caressed the skin of your right cheek , awakening a desire to feel more of him .
"I am at a vulnerable state so please forgive me. I shouldn't have asked you that. It's not your place to give me such comfort." You left those words out, words that were true however didn't fully represent the feelings he had currently gifted you.
"Why do put it like that? Do you like making me feel used?" His words made your breath got cut as he put some distance between you two, his gaze drifting away from you , making you grandly aware of the feeling of distance and even guilt. Because somehow he made you think that you had hurt him and that was the last thing you wanted to do.
As he went silent and the distance between your bodies started feeling like a big gap, your heart grew heavier by every second that time ticked away on his presence and the sun rised in the new day without missing his deadline. Rays so beautiful and warm that unfortunately failed to warm you inside like you so much needed to.
"Let's go inside. TaeYong may come at any minute now and he would be looking for you ." Jimin told you without sparing you a glance as he stood up from the bench and you felt as if you slipped down a cliff and into a pit of darkness, falling all alone with nothing around you.
He was about to walk away before you but you couldn't help but take hold of his arm as he passed before you and he looked down at you ,waiting for you to say something and explain your actions however it wasn't easy for you to do so and that's why you just stared at him for a moment. How could you explain, the void and sadness he managed to make you feel just at the thought that he was leaving you? He shouldn't have been so important but he was the only one that dared to say that he was there for you and even though you never fully believed him, now, in the situation that you were in -all alone at the mercy of someone whom wanted you dead-you wanted to believe him more than any time before.
"I am sorry." You finally managed to say something then you pursed your lips, letting your gaze show that the storm of emotions inside you was far more unsteady that you ever may let it show in the surface and Jimin looked at you, feeling incredibly sorry himself as he could feeli how tight the grip on his hand had become, showing a clear sign of desperation to not be left alone. And he couldn't help at that moment but hate himself for he was not real towards you.
He slowly placed his other hand above yours and took it away from his hand, releasing himself then he grabbed a good hold of your hand and intertwined your fingers before softly pulling you to stand up. He said nothing neither looked your way, as you slowly got up and started walking towards the exit to head back to your room. He just matched your slow pace and held your hand firmly, not too tight but strong enough to let you know that he was there , supporting you. That you were with him and as thus not alone.
---Change of set---
TaeYong had just stepped inside your room and found the bed empty, making him look around the room for a moment, in wonder if he had come to the wrong place but as he stepped outside and checked the number of the room , he re-entered being sure that he was at the right destination. He was holding a bouquet of flowers in his hands even though he wasn't sure if you liked flowers to begin with. He had randomly stopped by a flower shop while he was on his way to the hospital, thinking that it would be better if he didn't come empty handed however once he had stepped into the shop, he had regretting his actions as he got nervous instantly. Such actions were things that his secretaries usually do for him and now , there he was, under the pressure of a female's eyes that had asked him what could she help him with when he knew nothing about flowers nor the preferences of the one that was to accept them. Nontheless he had ended up with a safe choice as the girl at the flower shop had recommended him yellow roses, as they send a message of appreciation and represent feelings of joy and delight. He found them good enough for the friendlier attempts he had started towards you as his advisor and trusted friend LeeGuk had told him to do for now.
You weren't there for him to hand them to you though, so he approached your bed and left them on your commode. Before he had the chance to step away however the door opened and his turned around a bit startled momentarily . The nurse that had just entered inside however didn't seem surprised by his presence and she gifted him a polite bow with a small smile before walking towards your bed and leaving the hospital tab . TaeYong couldn't help but look at her for a while as for some strange reason, that nurse woke inside him a very familiar feeling and as he pinned his eyes on her card name , a flashback suddenly hit him, making his eyes grow wide.
"TaeYong." He heard his name being called and turned his head towards the door only to see you standing there with Jimin by your side.
He felt his whole body growing tense as he now knew whom that nurse was and with whom she works with and she was there, asigned to take care of you and at that moment he understood well that maybe your poisoning wasn't an incident as he would have liked it to be. He understood well that before his eyes was standing one more person whom he would be responsible for the loss of their life. Cause he knew, if she was the one that had targeted you, he could not save you. Just like he failed to save the woman he so much loved in his life. Just like he failed to keep alive MinHee.
He knew as he watched the nurse leaving the room, his frame as if it had froze in time, while you approached him and looked at him with a perplexed expression before asking him if he was okay. He knew what your mind could never even think of. He had before his eyes, the way you would die.
And he...could only gulp down slowly and kept his cold exterior and greeted you 'good morning'.
--- To be continued....
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Deceiver //PJM FF
FanfictionA young man who's life sends him to walk through roads that stain his gentle soul, finds himself before a job that will change his heart forever. A woman , hurt and unable to trust people that consists of thoughts of the past and plans of how to ob...
