Baatein kuch unkahee si

Part 18

Arnav read on

'..lagta hai yeh laad governor ne tayer kar liya hai ki woh humey pareshan karke rahenge...lekin hum bhi khushi kumari gupta hai..devi maaiya ki kasam unki har ek chal ka jawab hum deke rahenge..' (seems like he has decided that he will harass me,...but swear on God I will answer him back)

Then she wrote:

'Aj humne arnav singh raizada ke sath ek contract sign kar liya..shart ke mutabik agar humne naukri chhori to humey ek lakh rupaye dene honge.... hum jantey hai woh puri koshish karenge taaki hum naukri chhorne pe majbur ho jaye...lekin hum aisa hone nehi denge...' (I have signed a contract with him..and according to the contract if I leave the job I need to pay 1 lakh....and I know he would try his best so that I leave the job...but I will not let that happen)

'Kash devi maaiya aap jinhe bohot paise detey hai, unhe ek bara sa dil bhi detey... Aj daftar mein humne ek coat dhoya tha..uski wajah se hamara itna apmaan hua.. Aur woh laad governor..unhone to hadh hi kar di...hamari beizzati to woh har roz kartey hai lekin aj unhone humse waisewale kapde pehen ne ke liye kaha...yeh jantey huye ki hum aise nehi hai..hum aj bohot roye.. Lekin hamari tarah hamarey aasuo ka bhi koi mol nehi...(wish you had given a big heart to people you have given so much money...I washed a coat today in the office for which I was insulted a lot..and today he crossed his limits..he insults me everyday but today he asked me to wear a short dress knowing that I don't wear such things...I cried a lot but like me my tears also have no value)

Arnav said aloud as if to consol her: nehi khushi aisa nehi hai..tumharey hare k aasu mujhe hamesha chot pohochata hai...(no khushi it is not like that,...every tear drop of yours hurt me)

He felt miserable thinking how she felt when he used such harsh words against her. She cried and he couldn't wipe those tears. Infact he had always been the reason. And that day, he clearly remembers how he forced her to wear that short dress but no one knows that he was secretly hoping that she didn't come out infront of everyone wearing that.

He continued reading..

...'Humne aapka naam liya devi maaiya aur saree pehenke aaye..yeh jantey huye ki woh laad governor humpe chillayenge..shayed naukri se bhi nikaalde..kuch bhi ho jaye hum yeh nehi kar saktey they.. Par aaj unhone jaise humey dekha...unki ankhon mein gussa nehi tha...aur na jaaney kyun hum bhi unse nazrein hata hi nehi paye...unki aankhein jis tarah se humey dekh rahi thi.... Hey devi maaiya hum bhi na kuch bhi sochtey hai...hum sone jaa rahe hai nehito abhi buaji aa jayegi aur sankadevi, parameswari saarey naam ginwa dengi... Aap bhi so jaaiye devi maaiya..subh ratri (I took your name and wore a saree and came knowing that he would yell at me..may be throw me out of the office but I didn't care...but the way he looked at me today...there was no anger in his eyes...I couldn't take my eyes off him..oh god what all I keep thinking...let me sleep now or else buaji will scold me and you also sleep...Good night)

Arnav looked up from the diary and smiled. So she could feel the intensity of his looks. He never knew that his stare had become so obvious that even she understood. He felt extremely embarrassed. He recalled how his heartbeat had stopped for the first time seeing her in that red saree. His eyes became dreamy and his lips curved up in a smile. After a while, he looked down again and turned the page.

'..aj unhone fir humey saaza di..baarish mein humey parking mein gari lagane ke liye khara kar diya..hum ghanto bheegtey rahe..lekin fir jab hum ek gari ke samne aanewale they unhone hi humey bachaya..ek pal ke liye aisa laga tha jaise hum mar jayenge...lekin fir tez chalti hui saasey aur zor se dhadaktey huye dhadkan se ehsaas hua ki hum zinda hai aur unke bohot kareeb hai... Aj itne kareeb se unhe dekha...unki ankhon mein humey.... Nehi khushi tu bhi na kuch bhi sochti hai' (he made me stand in the parking lot in the rain for hours...but then he saved me when I was about to be run over by a car...for a moment I felt I had died but then when I felt my heavy breathing and fast heartbeat I knew I was alive and was very close to him...I saw him from such a close proximity today...in his eyes there was...no...khushi you keep on thinking anything)