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Lost

A/n: let's try to bring back the vibe I know well, sadness. Okay maybe not but like yeah. I tried so hard to stay awake and write this.
I'm gonna go back to sleep.✌🏻

Lately I've felt off, Im not in school anymore or really prepared for what my future hold but all I know is that i feel lost.

Usually I start off my day with checking my phone, see if I have an messages saying I need to be in work today or I get an extra hour of sleep.

Neal is always out by 6:30 because he's always got a busy day ahead of him. Which I don't mind but I've gotten used to it. As for me I don't feel the bed until maybe 12 o'clock sometimes.

"Zoe, how long has it been? Come on get out of bed." Jazz said as she shook me lightly. "Jazz do you ever feel your not doing anything with your life?" I said as I kept my eyes closed so I wouldn't get blinded by the sunlight spotting it's way in my room.

"I don't I guess." She said as she got up as said "if your not up in an hour or two, I can't help you, you bear." She's always called me a bear since I like to sleep.

For some reason I didn't get out of bed til it was nearly 12:30. I grabbed my phone and went into the bathroom where I did my usual routine; pee and brush my teeth then throw my hair in a bun since I was going to wash my hair.

Nearly falling asleep again as I typed away some more of my chapter for my book. I decided I'd take a nap and try again later.

3:00 o'clock rolls around and Neal comes over to eat some lunch but doesn't stay for long since he's a busy guy like I said.

He'd be back by 9 o'clock on the dot every night. Usually taking his coat off hanging it in the coat hanger and stepping out of his dress shoes and putting on his pajamas, which consisted of various different patterns. Tonight's seemed to be an black black silk button up and a pair of silk black bottoms.

"Zoe, what's wrong?" Neal said as he saw tiredly walk downstairs and hug him. "Nothing just tired." I said as I pulled back and blinked my heavy eyes.

"Have you been feeling okay up there?" He says knowing of my mental health disorder. "I guess." I answered back tired. "Aw Zoe baby, come here." He said as he pulled me in for a hug and a gentle kiss on the head as he lead us upstairs for a bath and leaving us to sleep next to each other.

He stared at me as I slept to make sure I was okay; I knew I was okay but I never wanted to feel lost like this before. He made sure I was comfortable before I slept and showered me in endless soft open mouthed kisses as it eyes closed no longer showing my heavenly hazel ones.