The Hidden Flaws - Bicolana Series #1 (COMPLETED)

The Hidden Flaws

Salamat dahil umabot ka rito. Thank you for reading Anna and Jonas' story. Let's continue to spread positivity and love like these two. Enjoy the epilogue and see you sa next story.

Love,
Angelica

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Epilogue

Before I met her, my life was a complete mess and it has so many flaws that I thought no one could understand. Ang tanging gusto ko lang makamit ay isang bagay: kalayaan. I wanted my family to be free from my father's greed of power and money. I wanted to be free from my father's expectation. I wanted to be free from the pressure that I've been feeling these years. I wanted to be free from my parents judgment to me, that I'm not capable to lead.

Madalas akong na-ku-kumpara sa kapatid ko, si Clyde. Mas matanda siya sa'min ni Justin kaya't nagtatrabaho na siya sa kumpanya namin. Anak siya ni Daddy sa pagkabinata kaya hindi siya pinakilala sa industriya.

Minsan tuloy, hindi ko rin mapigilan ang sarili kong ikumpara sa kaniya. Iyon naman ang palagi kong naririnig sa magulang ko kaya iyon na rin ang nag-tatak sa isip ko.

"You're nothing compare to your brother, Jonas." My father stated.

Kumuyom ang kamao ko. Simula bata pa ako, nakukumpara na ako sa kaniya pero bakit hanggang ngayon ay masakit pa rin? I should be used to it, so next time, I won't he affected anymore.

"This isn't a competition between me and Clyde, Dad. And I know. I'm nothing so stop comparing me to him." I couldn't hide the madness of voice.

Naramdaman ko ang pag-hawak ng nanay ko sa kamay ko at bahagyang hinila.

Mas lalo ko lang ginalit ang tatay ko. Ngayon ay tumayo na siya sa kaniyang swivel chair pala lapitan ako. Hindi ako gumalaw sa kinatatayuan ko pero si Mommy ay pinipilit akong hilahin.

"Jonas... Anak..." she called.

"Gusto kong umangat ka, Jonas. Sa tingin mo, kaya kong ibigay sa'yo ang kumpanyang pinaghirapan ko ng maraming taon kung hindi mo kayang pantayan ang galing ng kapatid mo?" Umiling siya. "Ikaw na lang ang maasahan ko kaya't gusto kong umayos ka! You have to excel your performance! If pressuring you means it will get you to the top, I won't stop then. You have to be on top, Steve!"

"And I am thriving my best, Dad!"

"If you think that is your best, then I'd say your best is not enough! I want you to excel. Do you understand?" he said frustratingly.

Kinalma ko ang sarili ko pagkatapos ng usapan namin. I couldn't get it. What kind of excellence does he want? Para maikalma ang sarili, I went out to have some fresh air. I know some friends who smokes when they wanna calm themselves. I don't know how cigarettes do that but I wanna try.

Kinuha ko ang susi ng kotse sa bulsa ko saka kinuha ito sa garahe saka pinaharurot ito sa kalsada. I can't calm myself down. I'm still damn mad at my Dad. Walang araw na hindi ako nagalit sa kaniya. Mabuti pa kapag may business trips siya at lumuluwas ng ibang bansa, doon lang maayos ang buhay ko.

I wished he never comes back one day. We can do it our own without my father. Lalo na kapag nakapagtapos na ako, I will make sure that he won't see us. When I heard rumors about him having an affair, that's when my grief for him deepened. The fuck! Ang malala pa doon ay alam ni Mama at wala siyang nagawa.

When I tried to tell my mother that, I received a slap from her. The physical pain got me. It was so hard, mukhang galit na galit talaga si Mama.

"How dare you? Alam kong galit ka sa Tatay mo! You have your reasons to be! Hindi kita pagbabawalang magalit! Hell be angry all you want to but don't ever accuse him of having an affair with someone in Catanduanes! Sisiraan mo pa talaga, Jonas?!" she yelled at my face.