Komahina (discontinued)

Chapter 18

Hajime's POV:

Rei wouldn't stop blowing up my phone since that time. I fully regretted what I did. I know Rei wants to apologize but I'd rather just not talk about it.
I've been doing things to distract myself. I ended up getting a part time job at a floral arrangement shop.
It's a fun place to work at. Izuru let me cut his hair up to his waist. Chiaki finally asked Izuru out and they have been dating for a bit. It's almost summer break. I can't believe it's already June.
However not one day goes by where I don't think about him. I've revived no contact from him. I have no idea if he is even on this earth anymore.
I tried to think about other things as I sat on the couch mindlessly switching through channels.
Izuru and Chiaki are gonna be out for another few hours. I need something to entertain me. I thought for a few seconds and then decided to just take a nap. I laid down in my bed and closed my eyes.
I started thinking about Nagito again. I thought about the time when we got caught by Izuru, then time in the hot tub, and when he was rough me before we watched a movie.
I miss feeling him. I miss him so much. Thinking about the times we did it made me hard.
I want him so badly. I should relieve this.. I unzipped my pants and took out my length. I slowly began to pump my hand up and down.
"Ha..." I let out a small grunt.
It's not enough.. It's not nearly enough.. I pulled my pants off and put my fingers in my mouth. I brought my fingers down to my entrance and entered one into me.
I tried to imagine when Nagito would do this to me. Slowly entering his fingers into me. He would careful hold my body. And kiss my neck.
"N-Nagito~" I let myself moan his name.
As I continued to enter another finger into me.
I found my special spot and aimed for it.
It's not enough.. I need more.
I got up and looked under my bed for a box I had labeled 'Extra clothing' but at the bottom of the box was a few toys I had for myself. I grabbed our a dildo. Went to the floor. Placing the dildo straight up. I slowly started to enter it into myself.
"Mmnnn.." I moaned as the dildo filled me all the way up.
Nagito liked it when I rode him.. I did too. I could look into his eyes and we hold onto my waist. Sometimes he would lick and kiss my chest. And fondle me..
I used my own hand to start copying what Nagito use to do my chest.I continued to ride the dildo until I felt close. I moved my hand down to my length and began to pump myself.
"Ahh~" I moaned as my cum shot out is me.
I felt tears fall down my face. Fuck..
Nagito why? Why did you have to leave.
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Nagito's POV:

I looked at the hospital window. It was pouring down rain. I hate it here. I wish Hajime was here to warm me up. It freezing.. His hugs always warmed my heart..
Fuck. Maybe I should text him? No. Don't. As much as I want to. If I text him I know I'll end up telling him where I am. I don't want him to see my like this.
The problem is, I know Hajime cares for me. I know he'll suffer seeing me. I can't do anything.. why can't this all be over? I want to see him. How much longer? It's already almost the end of first year.
Hajime.. Please don't forget about me. I'm sorry for my selfish request but I hope you won't forget about me.

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Alrighty real quick. I wanted to explain why the bad ending, ended up with Nagito dying. It's because Nagito was supposed to go to the hospital that was far away at 2 am so he's get there at 6 am.
He from there would have received enough help to keep him alive. What the doctors and Nagito didn't know. If he hadn't gotten enough help by 9 am he would have been dead.
By Hajime saying "let's reschedule for another time" it made Nagito rethink leaving. He will end up not leaving at all. Causing him to die later that day.
However when you push for an answer Hajime respect that he is lying to him. And won't ask to reschedule. But Nagito will want to do things with you before he goes. So he'll stay with Hajime until midnight and then leave going home. He'll feel more content since he was just with him. And will be able to say goodbye easier.