Behind The Scenes

27. Hero

It was an intense fight. We both exaggerated, especially me, but fuck, she must understand that I will not forgive her just because I love her, she was wrong and she must understand her mistake. But now that I think about it, I was wrong too... why the fuck did I tell her I fucked Jessica? I'm the jerk of the year. Now she will think we are au pair when we are not.
This thing bothers me, she kissed a guy and I... I just got drunk with Jessica, but it has nothing to do with fucking. Plus, when she was trying, I stopped her, for my sake and Jo's.
Now she is certainly at Anna's, she has no alternative. I'll be going to London in the next few days.
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I have to go shopping at the market below, I have nothing to cook something decent.
Oh no, Anna is here shopping... is she with Jo? Please tell me no.
"Hero!" she meets me in the drinks department.
"Hi Anna," I say pretending to be too focused on the beers to pay attention to her, I hope she goes away.
"How are you? I haven't seen you since you moved..."
It bothers me when she pretends she doesn't know things. "Anna, I know you know everything that's happened, so please stop," I burst out.
"You're right, can I ask you a question?"
I roll my eyes without being noticed. "Shoot, you'd ask anyway."
"Did you really fuck that Jessica?" she asks softly.
Does she think I'm such an asshole to do such a thing? "No! Of course not! I wouldn't even want it if I had the chance!" I sigh. "Do you all think I'm really so fucking asshole to do such a thing?"
She looks down.
I can not believe it...
I may have had many girls — with whom I have had nothing to do except for sex — but no one like Jo. I can swear it, on everything.
"You love her? Tell me the truth." She suddenly asks me.
And does she even ask herself? "Yes, fuck! Anna, I've never felt this way about anyone before, I've never loved anyone. For me she is the only one..."
She gives me a half smile of pity.
I don't want anyone's pity, I just want... her.
"I'm going to London, you can find me there."
"I got it. Bye Hero» and she walks away with a wave of her hand.
What the...? Surely she and Jo are allies against me, that's why she says little. Oh, let them all go fuck themselves.

I come home and it's 10:00 a.m when I decide to prepare something for breakfast. Something that regenerates me... Scrambled eggs, bacon and... I just have to make pancakes! Perfect breakfast.
While I prepare them, I open Spotify and play my favorite British rap playlist, it gives me energy and helps me improve my mood, which for now sucks a little.
I let the dough rest for a while in the fridge and in the meantime I scramble the eggs and fry the bacon. What a good smell...
After about a quarter of an hour my breakfast is ready, I sit at the table and eat in silence. I miss her company, but I don't want to think about it, I don't have to.
I rest for a while on the sofa, I'm very tired, it was one of those exhausting nights.
A nap for a good hour was enough to get me back a bit, enough to stand up. I'm going to take a shower, I have to relax my mind and body, I'll be there for a while.
When I step into the shower, memories of Anna's house come to my mind in no time. Her kisses under the hot water, her moans as I made her cum with two fingers, her lips wrapped around my cock... It's been a very short time, yet it seems like a distant memory...
Before I can send these memories back, my hand is wrapped around my dick. I hadn't masturbated in a long time, we went to bed almost every day and I didn't feel the need, but now I need so badly to... to feel her tight on top of me. So, while my hand goes up and down, I imagine her instead of it.
It's absurd what this girl is doing to me...