Behind The Scenes

63. Hero

I have to take Jo to the airport tomorrow night.
Two months. Two fucking months.
It's too long, really. But she hasn't seen her family for... four months, and Australia is not exactly around the corner. How am I going to be two months without her? I don't even want to think about it.
Or maybe... I think I might need her sister's phone number.
Jo is sleeping now. Today she spent the whole day at Anna's with Asher, which explains her tiredness. I stayed home and went there just for dinner and then we went home. Anna was in tears when she and Jo said goodbye.
I need her phone. I reach over Jo's head and try not to wake her up.
She moves slightly and lets out a moan. For a moment I'm afraid I woke her up. Fortunately no.
I take the phone and unlock it. She has a too banal pin, I always tell her that she should change it, but her answer is always "No, if I forget it, how can I figure that out?"
I go to the phone book and send Kathrine's number to myself. I store it on my phone and then delete the messages.
Perfect!
I put her phone back in its place and hug her again. Her body is so warm that it immediately lulls me into a deep sleep.

What are these noises? It seems that someone is having fun in the next apartment...
I turn the key and when I put my feet inside the moans become more intense. What the fuck...?
Where is Jo?
"Jo?" I look for her next to me. She was here a second ago... where did she go?
I look for her in the kitchen, in the living room, in the bathroom... and in the bedroom.
I can't believe my fucking eyes.
"Oh... Liam..." she moans.
Liam is literally fucking her in front of me. In our bed. At our home. My girlfriend. And she mumbles his name, she says she loves him.
He is fucking her hard. I've never gone that hard either, ever. And she likes it, so much. He is between her legs, he moves and sinks into her.
He tells her he's about to climax and then she comes shaking.
I leave the room as if it might catch fire, and more moans are heard from behind the door.

OMG.
I wake up sweaty, with shortness of breath and a terrible headache. I'm going to have a panic attack. I start coughing and almost choke on my own saliva.
Jo wakes up because I'm frantically moving in bed trying to sit up and lean my back on the headboard.
"Hero. Hey, hey, it's okay. Breathe." She approaches me as I continue to breathe heavily and shake. It's a very bad feeling. "It was a bad dream, I'm here. Breathe..." and we slowly inhale together, then we exhale. And again... inhale... exhale.
"Are you okay?" she asks with her hands on my face, worried.
"Yes... just..." I cough, "don't ever leave me."
I need her in my life more than I need air to breathe.
She kisses me gently and brushes my hair from my sweat-soaked forehead. "I'm never gonna leave you."
I know that she won't, or at least, I hope to the last with all of myself.
I smile slightly and she kisses me again.
"Have you calmed down?" she asks me softly, stroking my hair.
I nod.
"Thank goodness, shall we go back to sleep?"
I nod again.
She rolls onto her back and waves me to come over to her. "Come here."
I lay down next to her and rest my head on her belly as she scratches my head. Every now and then I hear some gurgling from her stomach.
"I love you," I whisper before closing my eyes.
She doesn't respond, so I guess she's already asleep.
That wasn't a bad dream, it was my worst nightmare, my biggest fear.
Liam's hands all over Jo's beautiful body. Him between her legs. She moaning his name and saying she loves him...
My mind seems to be making fun of me. I can only hope that I will never have to live this nightmare.
We're separated for almost two months tomorrow, and I don't want to think about that anymore.
I just want to think about her, about the future I want with her, about her gray-blue eyes that make me see life from a better perspective than mine.
I want to tell her that I love her until my lungs give out forever and my heart stops beating.