Under A Rest | ☁️

Chapter 55

I'm just staring at the paper I'm holding while my hands were shaking. They knew I was here, and they even asked me to operate Tito Zero. I cannot even afford to look at them nor see them because I know...the moment I did, I will lose my sanity. I will surely be filled with anger.

I wanna avoid them for I don't know how long because my heart isn't ready yet. It's not yet ready to forgive them and forget what it has been through.

I sighed and decided to leave my office to go home. The director gave me a week to decide and prepare for the operation. Maybe I'll just have some serene time to decide. Ito ang mahirap sa pagiging kahit gaano kasama ang isang Tao, tungkulin naming gamutin ito. Well, that's not the case because Tito Zero has been good to me, it's just the people around him, hurt me and kill my unborn child. We, the doctors need to set aside our personal issues for the sake of our profession. I am aware of that, but I'm not sure if I'll be doing it.

I saw a familiar figure in the hallway, mas humaba na ang buhok niya ngayon at dalang dala niya ang uniporme niya. It's Kiesha.

Nagtama ang mata namin at bahagya siyang nagulat. Nang makabawi ay agad siyang lumapit sa akin. I look around to make sure that she's making her way towards me. She stopped in front of me and scan me from head to toe, it's as if she's looking for something wrong with me and laugh on it.

"So, it's true that you're home...is it also true that you're flirting with Uno?" I gasped because of her accusation, how dare her.

"I am not flirting with him Ms. Police officer"

"You look successful now. You look superior and high with that white coat, but your whole being didn't change at all...ugaling kalye ka pa rin"

I raised one of my brow. Ano bang problema nito? Wala naman akong ginagawa sa kaniya, bakit ang laki laki ng galit ng babaeng ito sa akin.

"Wow! What a great pretender." she laughed sarcastically, nakakainsulto. "I have my eyes in Alpha team at lahat nakarating sa akin"

So she has been spying on Uno everywhere, what a possessive admirer.

"Kung ganon...bakit hindi nakarating sayo na hindi ikaw ang gusto ni Uno?" I said smirking. I saw how her reaction changed in just a snap.

"Look Kiesha, I'm not looking for a cat fight. Why not talk to Uno instead, I'm a busy person as you can see." I was about to walk away from her when she harshly grabbed my arms.

"Bakit ka pa kasi bumalik? Konti na lang kaya na niya akong mahalin...I spent years just to make him love me, tapos isang linggo lang umiikot nanaman yung mundo niya sayo"

I am aware of her feelings towards Uno, noon pa man ay alam ko na iyon. Kahit paano ay nirespeto niya ang relasyon namin noon, kaya bakit hindi niya magawang respetuhin ang desisyon ni Uno. It's not up to me, hindi ako ang magdidikta sa puso ni Uno.

"Mabuti pa ay siya na lamang ang kausapin mo Kiesha" I said then released myself from her tight grip.

"Bakit hindi mo tigilan ang panglalandi mo sa kaniya" parang nag init naman ang ulo ko sa sinabi niya.

Hindi ko nilandi si Uno, at hindi ko kailangan gawin iyon.

"Why don't you wake up Kiesha? Kung totoong muntik ka na niyang mahalin...bakit nagkukumahog siyang bumalik sa akin? He never chose you because you were never in the choices, no one was... Ako lang. Ako lang ang paulit ulit niyang pipiliin."

Pinantayan ko ang intensidad ng titig niya. With all the courage and trust I have for Uno, I brag on her.

"Magkatunog lang ang pangalan natin...pero kailanman hindi ka niya kayang mahalin" I heard her gasped but I couldn't care less, dumiretso ako palabas ng hospital.

I need to breath. I need to rest. And as if on cue, an unregistered number called. I am not planning to answer it but there's a sudden urge inside me that tells me to click the answer key.

"This is Dr. Londres of Health Medicare Hospital, how may i help you"

Walang sumagot sa kabilang banda bagkus ay nakarinig lamang ako ng pag buntong hininga.

"I miss you Doc!" malambing na himig niya mula sa kabilang linya.

"Who's this?" I tried to tease him

"Ouch. Ang harsh mo Doc, ako lang to si Uno...na kumapit sa patalim makuha lang ang number mo. Tsss" I hid my chuckled to tease him even more.

"What do you need?"

"I need you." sa pagkakataong ito ay ako naman ang natigilan sa sinabi niya. Hindi ko inaasahan iyon, Uno and his punch lines. "Oh, ba't natigilan ka Doc? On the way ka na ba? Grabe ka!"

Natawa ako sa inaasta niya. I imagined him telling these lines while he's wearing his respected uniform. He's so cute.

"Ang hangin mo Sir!"

"Kung ako ay mahangin bakit hindi kita matangay papunta sa'kin" I heard him chuckled na parang siya ang kinikilig sa pinagsasabi niya.

"Kung sayo naman ako, bakit kailangan mo pa akong tangayin papunta sayo" I heard my phone beeped after I said it. It means patay na ang tawag, binabaan niya ako ng telepono.

I pouted because of what he did, maya maya lamang ay nagring ulit ito.

"Sorry Doc! Napindot. Kinilig lang" I just rolled my eyes kahit alam kong hindi niya makikita. "So, How are you?"

Napabuntong hininga ako nang maalala ang nangyari kanina sa amin ni Kiesha. I realized that I was so harsh on her. I think I need to apologize to her for being mean, I didn't thought of my words because I was consumed of frustration.

"Kiesha talked to me awhile ago" naramdaman ko ang pananahimik niya sa kabilang linya so I continued. "I think you need to talk to her first, before we could settle everything"

The truth is I felt bad for Kiesha. Nagmahal lang naman siya, pero iyon nga Lang doon sa taong hindi kayang suklian ang pagmamahal niya. I know, Uno still beats for me, I know it will never be her. And I think that's what she needs to understand herself, she's too beautiful to settle for unrequited love.

I told Uno everything that happened. I can sense that he's also worried about her, it's just normal because they are friends and she's his comrade. She was with him when I cannot. Hindi ko tuloy maiwasang mapaisip kung bakit hindi na lang siya, she's almost perfect at gusto pa ng pamilya niya para sa kaniya, samantalang ako... nevermind. I don't wanna belittle myself just for them.

He promised to talk to Kiesha when he got to see her kapag umuwi siya. I think it's all good. Nakaramdam ako ng antok kaya naman nagpaalam na ako.

"I think I have to go Uno. It's almost late, we should take a rest" I told him after I changed clothes.

"I'm resting, while we're talking" I smiled because I do too. I'm resting while I'm talking to you.

I cannot find this comfort and rest with anyone else, sa kaniya lang. Maybe it's the reason why I wasn't able to try again after him.

"Good night Doc! Mahal kita"

Because my heart only beats for him and I can only find my rest in him. With him I am resting.

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