The Wish | Sirius Black x Reader

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"Sirius, I have got something to tell you."

"Yeah?"

"I am sorry. I- I was - " I felt a painful lump in my throat, cutting off my voice. I covered my face with my hands. I felt tears, loads and loads of tears stream down between my fingers. I couldn't even cry out loud. I let myself be drown in my own sea of guilty tears in silence.

" Y/n? Oh my god. Are you okay?" Sirius gasped, completely caught off guard.

I could not answer to him. As much as I wanted to talk to him, I couldn't even stop the tears. He was panicking now. Asking what was wrong or why I was crying. But I was there crying my eyes out in silence unable to do anything.

I felt a pair of warm hands around my shoulders. He pulled me into a hug. I buried myself into his shoulders and stained his shirt with my tears as I cried into his chest. His hands protectively wrapped around me.

"Shhhh, y/n it's okay. Let it out. " he said in a hoarse voice, rubbing my upper back comfortingly.

"I really, really like you Sirius" I breathed against his chest.

"Say what now?" his eyes widened in shock. Out of all things he expected me to be crying about, liking him would not even have made it to the list. But here I am.

I lifted up my head to see him. I looked into his face, right into those stormy night, grey eyes. The eyes as deep as the ocean.

I missed those eyes so much.  I missed being in his embrace. I missed this warmth he gave me. I missed this sense of safety I felt around him. I missed the way he looks at me with care. I missed the butterflies he gave me. I missed his flowy dark hair. I missed him. I missed Sirius Black.

"I like you, Sirius." I said, nor taking my eyes off him, neither did he. " No, not as a friend. More than that" I added.

"Y/n, do you really mean what I am thinking?" He said.

" Yes, Sirius."

"Oh" he blinked.

" OH MY MERLIN! Wow! Really? My Goodness! Y/N!" He exclaimed after processing what I just said.

"Wait- Then why did you ignored me for last few days?" he looked at me, still his arms around me.

"Because I realized how I felt about you. I tried to push you away, Sirius. I am not very good with emotions. I freaked out because.... because it was way too real."

" What do you mean way too Real?"

" You know how I got here. If I let myself feel those things towards you, I probably would not be able to live normally after I go back."

" You are going back?" he asked, with dark eyes and a frown.

" No, I don't want to. But, what if I go just like how I got here? All of sudden. Sirius, I can not live my muggle life if I get attached the one I live here"

" You should not go." He said, sadly.

" I would not if I were given a choice. But what if I wasn't? I wanted to make sure that I would be able to go on with my life if I went back. I thought I did not care if it hurt me or you. But, turns out I did care." I chuckled sheepishly.

" It's okay y/n. I understand you. And I also like you more than a friend" he beamed.

" Thank You, Sirius" I hugged him, so did he.

" You are Welcome" he tightened the hug.

" So does everything go back to normal? "He questioned.

" Yes, may be we inform James before we go up so he won't freak the fuck out?" I giggled.

" Absolutely"

" Let's go downstairs, Lucas and I prepared Dinner" I stood up, holding out my hand, which he took without hesitation.