The Sundrop & The Moondrop

- Chapter 40, A Carousel Of Never-ending Madness -

- Sundrop's perspective -

It's been a couple of weeks since we got taken through that portal... MoonStar's been holding onto the strange phone-like device that we were given. There's been nothing too interesting happening apart from a few minor issues in the daycare, a kid named Kyle threw up yesterday and a girl named Jenny's seemed to have mysteriously disappeared. I've been hoping it's not another incident again.. I hate when those happen but then again, they've not happened for about a year now. Even thinking about it makes me stressed, so I've been distracting myself from thinking about it but sooner or later I know we'll have to investigate the disappearance... management makes us- well, MoonStar search for the missing children whenever they do go missing. It's something to do with the law? I don't really understand it.

I've been thinking about Sunset quite a bit, they're strange but then they seem familiar.. maybe there's someone like them here? or maybe they're only like that because... well, they seem like they've been alone for quite some time, so I don't blame them for being a bit weird when we first met them. They can't talk either, it makes me feel bad.. maybe if I was there, I could've done something about it... whatever happened, maybe I could've stopped it from happening! I could've helped them when they needed it the most. Nevermind, they're a portal away anyways and I can only assume they're in a different world... if there even is different worlds, that strange lady said something about it before she sent us back. Sometimes, I feel like there's nothing I can do about certain things.. it makes me feel quite useless? I can't really describe it properly because I don't know the words to but- I just feel hollow. It's hard to find an answer to a question that you don't know, it's even more difficult to solve a problem when you are the problem.. I guess I know how MoonStar felt now. All those months ago, those dark times... I still think about it often and when I'm inactive, it's all I can imagine. Memories just keep looping round and round, on a carousel of never-ending madness.

Atleast I have those who care, those who I know I can talk to.. atleast I have MoonStar. I'm good at comforting others but never can I comfort myself, but MoonStar knows how to.. MoonStar understands me. ..Sundrop, you mean more to me than Roxanne, than Monty.. even Officer Vanessa, Chica and Freddy... I don't care about them as much as I do you, please.. never forget that... there are still things worth caring about in this world.. and I'm looking right at one of them.. he said it himself, to my face with a caring look in his eyes.. and for that I'm grateful, grateful to have someone like him around. Someone who cares more than others do, someone who understands how you feel because I know that.. in some places, some people don't have those kinds of people. Some just don't have someone there to understand and comfort them as I do.

Life may just be a carousel of never-ending madness sometimes, but at times... it can be one's greatest treasure.

- Chapter 40 End -