Fallin in love

Downhill

"Why?" I asked.

"I don't know it just feels like we need one right now. We've never spent a day apart since we started dating, we've been having some disagreements lately. I don't know y/n" he sighed.

"Maybe it'll be a good thing for us" he said.

I stared at him. Reading his face. Trying to see what he was feeling.

But I couldn't.

He just seemed lifeless.

Like something else was bothering him deep down and it had nothing to do with us.

"Is that really why though?" I asked.

He looked down.

"...I just need time to figure out my shit" he started.

"When I'm with you I'm never anxious about my surroundings. Never. And when I'm not I'm just filled with anxiety. I don't want to be dependent on you for that. It's too much pressure on you" he spoke.

I didn't have anything to say.

What was there to say?

No don't go stay with me even though you need to work on yourself?

"oh" I finally spoke.

We sat in silence. Staring at the floor.

"I move Saturday" he said breaking the silence.

I looked up at him again.

It was taking every ounce of self control not to start bawling.

"Oh" I said.

"Could you please say something to me other than 'oh'... please" he pleaded.

I don't want to.

There's nothing to say.

Just leave so I can cry and let it out.

"There's nothing to say Jacob" I replied with a weak sympathetic smile.

A glaze covered his eyes.

"Kay" he said.

He got up and went out the room closing the door behind him.

As soon as he did I felt my eyes fill.

Tears slid down my face and off my chin.

I fell back onto the bed and picked my phone up.

I texted Harper asking her to come in my room and soon after she did.

"What happened?" She quickly asked as she jumped onto the bed bringing me into a hug.

"He uhm... he wants a break" I said through sobs.

"From us" I added.

"What the hell? Why?" She asked.

"He said he's too dependent on me and needs to figure out how to live without me. He doesn't want me to have that kind of pressure" I said.

She didn't say anything after that and just held me in her arms.

A couple minutes later I stopped crying and we were just laying there staring at the ceiling.

"Wanna go get snacks and watch shows all night?" Harper smiled turning her head to look at me.

I gave her a weak smile and nodded.

I grabbed my keys slid on my slippers and we walked downstairs and to the car.

We got in and I drove us to seven eleven.

When we got there we both got out the car and went into the store.

We grabbed all our favorite candies and chips, a couple drinks, and of course a slushee since it's seven eleven.

"Your total is 18.82" the cashier said.

I pulled my card out my wallet but before I could Harper tapped hers on the reader and paid.

"You didn't have to pay" I said.

She smiled and said "too late"

"Plus I'm taking care of you today so I'm paying. You always pay for me" she added.

We grabbed our bags and headed back home.

Jacobs car was gone again and to be honest I was kind of glad.

I didn't want to know if things were awkward between us.

I hoped they weren't.

I hoped that we'd just be good friends for a while until he was ready to be with me again.

We walked inside and back upstairs into my room.

I jumped onto the bed and grabbed the remote.

"Mean girls?" I asked.

"You don't even need to ask" she smiled as she plopped onto the bed with me.

For the next 4 hours all we did was eat snacks, watch movies, and talk.

And honestly it was great.

Like free therapy.

"Should we get actual food" Harper suggested.

"Sounds amazing" I replied.

"What should we get?" She asked.

I pulled out my phone and opened doordash.

"You know what sounds great" Harper smiled.

"What" I said. I couldn't help but smile back.

"Sushi." She smiled even bigger.

"Yummm" I said.

"But so does canes" She sighed falling back onto the bed.

"Let's get both. You have me craving them now" I smiled.

I ordered our food from the sushi place and Canes and about 35 minutes later it arrived.

We rushed downstairs and I opened the door.

Harper picked up the bag from canes and I picked up the bag from the sushi restaurant.

I spun around and saw Jacob and Bryce walking towards the door.

Jacob had he's keys and they both looked like they were about to go to some party or something.

I didn't say anything and just smiled at them both before Harper and I ran upstairs.

I closed the door behind us and jumped onto the bed next to Harper.

"You okay?" She asked.

"I wasn't expecting to see him" she added.

"I'm fine" I said giving her a forced smile.

She gave me a sympathetic smile before turning back on Outer banks.

We started eating and talking about whatever came to mind.

"JJ is so fine" I said before taking a bit of my toast from canes.

"John b though" Harper replied.

"John b is overrated Red." I said.

"You know who's underrated?" She started.

"Who" I asked before eating a piece of sushi.

"Pope" she said sipping her drink.

"Mm yeah he's definitely underrated" I replied.

"Rafe thoughh" I exclaimed.

"He may be psychotic but at least he's hot and psychotic" i added.

We both laughed at my comment and went back to eating and watching the show.
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I wasn't sure how to write their break up. I knew for a while that I wanted to do it but never really knew how so this will have to work.  Thanks for reading<333