Fallin in love

Coping

*Jacobs pov>

Bryce and I walked out his room and towards the door.

He suggested we go to a party to cope with our breakup and overcome my anxiety.

As much as I didn't want to go he insisted and I figured saying yes to him would be easier than fighting.

I saw y/n and Harper grabbing two bags of food before spinning back around.

We locked eyes and she did the last thing I expected her to do.

She smiled.

I don't want her to be sad and miserable but this isn't any better.

She looks unfazed by our breakup.

Like nothing happened.

Like we were just friends.

Before I could say anything or even smile back she was up the stairs and in the room with Harper.

Bryce shot me a confused look and I just shrugged him off.

We got in the car and I cranked it up.

"She seems fine" Bryce said.

"yup." I replied as I backed out the driveway.

"What would you rather her be miserable" He asked.

"no. I don't know." I said.

"Why'd you do it anyway" he asked.

"Your anxiety can't be the entire reason." He added.

I didn't reply.

I couldn't.

Bryce just sighed and looked away.

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We walked into the party and immediately I was ready to leave.

They're were girls In tiny skirts and crop tops everywhere.

Guys drinking and playing beer pong.

I hate parties.

And the only person that I wished was here is who I wanted a break with.

Which just proves that I needed to be less dependent on her.

"Jacob?" Someone said.

I turned to see Kaylee.

I knew her in freshman year and for a while I even had a crush on her.

That was until I started liking y/n again.

"Hey" I said.

She got about 4 inches away from me.

"Want a drink?" She smiled.

Not really.

"Sure I'll take one" I said.

She grabbed my hand and walked us to the bar.

She poured me a drink and handed me the cup before grabbing my hand again.

Her hands were clammy. I didn't want to touch her. It felt wrong somehow.

Even though I wasn't with y/n anymore none of the girls here looked even slightly attractive. And holding Kaylees hand gave me a sick feeling.

"Wanna dance" she smirked turning around to face me.

"What?" I asked.

She turned around and started to sway her hips against me.

Where the hell did Bryce go?

I wanted to push this girl off of me.

But part of me thought that maybe this would help take my mind off of her.