Date: March 29th, 2013
Intro: I avoided Jean today and pretty much stared off into space every chance I got (Unintentionally)
Tone: Hopeful, Willing, Thoughtful
I want to give you
My all
But it's just not that easy
I set my hand on my heart
And I try to put the PIN number in
But it seems that I'm just stuck again
These insecurities
I'm not sure what they mean
But they make me want to step back
All you have to do is
Find the key
Because my heart won't let me
I want to give you my all
Although, this relationship os slowly breaking
I won't give up on you
But here's the thing
I don't know about me
I wonder every day how people can just let go
Within a weeks notice
Because I feel like were going on a stroll
I like the way you are
You just keep me happy
But it's that thought
That makes me want to love
Darling please don't take it personal
I'm just confused
But then...
Who knows exactly how they feel in this situation?
I'll give you what I can with what I have
But I have a lock on my trust, I'm hand cuffed
By my own demise
So give me time
To slip away
into comfort
Because I really want to stay
Right here next to you
With you in my arms
I want to give you my all
And I will
Because I know there's a way
For you to forge the key yourself
Conclusion: Sometimes I wish that I could stop writing. The one thing writer;s hate with the passion is writer's block. I'd love some right now. My mind is like in a constant dream made and I always have ideas. T_T
Obviously, this one is about Jean. I keep coming close to pushing her away when she gets me to say something I wouldn't just tell anyone. I've talked to Lily about it. She told me to just so what I've always done and talk to Jean about the problems I have with her and myself. She pointed out that that's what I did when I was with her so how difficult can it be with Jean. Especially since we were friends before. I asked her out. Now that I think about it... It is difficult. Because, with a stranger that you say that you love and really don't it doesn't give you guilt but when it's with a friend you've known forever that's another story. You still don't want to break the stranger's heart but you can do it a lot easier than with a friend. Well, shoot I don't know if I want to just sit back for a little bit. She's playing a video game right now. Um... Yea. I can't think.
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Atonement?
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