Love or Fame?

Chapter 113

I posted for Started From The Bottom. @ least 8 comments for this one and that one too & not just "update." Okay, here we go.

*6 months later*

Haven and I have been together a lot since that day he took me out to chill and we've definitely gotten closer. Yes, we've worked on the song and we even dropped it a few days ago. The fans really love it and I couldn't be happier. The name of the song is "First Time" and it's got that beat almost like Drake's "Hold On We're Going Home." Yeah, something like that. Haven's been excited to work with me from the moment I told him about it and I honestly don't regret the choice I made. Like I said, he's beyond amazing. He can also be annoying. I'm actually with him right now.

"Wowww, look at youuuu & yo balloon" he yelled as he walked in my house, referring to my baby bump. "Ugh, don't make fun of me. I know I'm fat." I waddled over to the couch and took a seat next to him. "Aww, you know I'm just playin w/ you. You still gorgeous. You know that. You got that glow too." Once again, he made me blush. He always had the right words at the right time. "& you know that you're still an annoying pain in the ass that loves to make fun of me but then turns it into something sweet. So I guess you're the sweet pain in the ass type." That made him laugh. "But, you're my sweet pain in the ass so I can tolerate you," I said making him laugh even more. "WOW! You really just came at me after I made you blush. Yeah, I peeped that. But when don't I make you blush? & whatcu mean you tolerate me? Girl quit playin cuz you know you loooove me." He continued to laugh while pinching my cheeks. I couldn't help but laugh too and push him away. "Whatever Haven! Just pass me my laptop." He did as I said and as soon as I turned it on, I went straight to Ustream. It's been a minute. I tweeted my fans the link and instantly had 20k views. "HEYYYY ANGELS!!! How y'all doiiiin," I yelled. "Oh, sorry lemme put this chat on...there we go! So how are my angels?" They were replying with good, I love you, I missed seeing you on my screen, and other stuff that I just couldn't catch because the chat was going at like 90mph right now. "So um, I really appreciate the feedback on the song. You're all amazing and I just wanna thank you so much for supporting me and Haven. I know I already did this on twitter, but I haven't officially introduced you to Haven yet. & I wanna do that right now! Haven come here." He sat closer to me so that they could see him. "Angels, this is Haven. Haven, say hi to my angels." He flashed a smile and waved. "Hey angels," he said a bit shyly. We looked at each other and all I did was laugh. "What," he asked still smiling. "Boy you know you ain't shy. I don't know why you acting like-" then I saw someone in the chat say something that caught my attention. They asked if Haven and I were dating. "Uh, no. No, we're not dating," I said. Haven looked at me, smiled, then looked back at the camera, said "yet" and laughed. "Haven! Don't listen to him!" They went from talking about our music to our relationship status. Half of them were saying that we should while the other half were still on me and Diggy. We saw a bunch of "#TeamHaven" and a bunch of "#TeamDiggy" and Haven was actually amused by this. I was able to slow it down a little and one thing that stood out to me was

OMGBaddie: #TeamHaven Diggy's hurt her more than once. That's enough!

"Umm OMGBaddie, I see you and thank you for that. But for real though, Haven and I aren't dating and Diggy and I aren't back together," I said. They continued to have this debate and what was supposed to be a fun Ustream, turned out to be a heated argument. They're were name callings and all that. They even took it to twitter. "Okay, okay, okay, that's enough angels! You're better than this! We're a family. Remember that! No need for all this over something like that. Just end it. It's not even that serious. I'm gonna get off this now but just know that I love you with all my heart and stop arguing over this!" After saying all that, I blew them a kiss and ended the chat. "We'll that was interesting," Haven said as he rested his head back on my couch smiling. "Interesting? Haven, that was a disaster." He sat up again and looked at me. "Lexi, can I ask you something?" "Sure, you can ask me anything." He took a deep breath before speaking again. It was like he was thinking of how to put it. How to say the right words. "Why don't you wanna be with me? I mean, the last time I asked, you said it was because you just got out of a relationship. I understood that and all this time, I never wanted to cross the line with you. I never wanna push you into anything. But, it's been a while now. Are you still not ready? Or is it because you still have feelings for him? I mean, you've been spending time with him and I get that that's his child inside of you, and I get that he has to be around for the both of you. But what I don't understand is...are you falling for him again? & why?" Now it was my turn to take the deep breath. Diggy and I have been spending some time together since that day I told him that the baby is his. But those times we were together, nothing happened. He didn't even try anything. So am I falling for him again? No. But for why I don't wanna be with Haven, I don't know. I honestly don't know. "Haven, I'm carrying Diggy's baby. So, we'll always be...connected because of that. Yes, I still love him. That'll never stop. I just don't love him the same way as I once did. Things just...changed. I needed to get away from all the drama and I did. And you helped. So for your question, am I falling for him again? Honestly, no, I'm not. For your other question, why won't I be with you, I just- we have such a great friendship and I don't want anything to ruin that. And, I guess I'm just...scared of getting hurt again." He took a minute and thought about what I just said, then spoke again. "But, you can't let your past control what you do in the present Lex. What he did to you, I swear to you, I'll never do. I really do care about you Lex. Whenever I'm around you, I feel like I'm a different, happier person. Every second with you is like I'm on cloud 9. Lex, I get that your scared. But please, don't let the things one foolish man who didn't see what he had, did to you affect what you want. Just give me a chance, please. I swear I won't mess this up." He looked at me with such sincerity in his eyes. I just didn't know what to say.

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