Love or Fame?

Hotel Thoughts: The Note

I'm finally free! Took my last exam on Friday so I'm done w/ school & I'm graduating on Saturday! I'm soo excited! Starting college in July! Anyway, I'll be in Jamaica for two weeks so you won't be getting any new chapters from the 10th to the 24th so I'll try to post as much as possible until then. Remember, @ least 8 comments!

Lexi P.O.V

We continued with our rap game until we heard a knock on the door. We all looked in the direction of the door but no one got up. "I got it," I said. I got up and went to open the door. When I did, no one was there, but there was something at the door...flowers. Confused, I picked them up and went back inside. "Ooo you got flowers," Rina said smiling. "Yeah, but from who," I asked while inspecting the bouquet of flowers looking for a card. Finally, I found one. It read:

Lexi, I know I was being an ass and you're pissed off at me. I'll give you some time to cool off, but I just need you to know that I'm sorry. I love you. P.S. there's nothing going on between me & Logan. I swear to you, I will never do that to you. Love, Haven <3

Haven? Haven doesn't even know where I am. Well I didn't tell him where I was. "You good," Diggy asked. I looked up at him. "Um, yeah. Yeah, I'm good," I lied. He tilted his head a little and furrowed his eyebrows. He knew that I was lying. No one was really paying attention so he was able to mouth the words "talk to me later." I simply nodded. Serina looked up at me. "So who're the flowers from? Haven?" "Oh, um, yeah," I replied. I think they're from him. "Well it's been fun," Spin said as he headed to the door. "But I'm babysitting Jett tonight." "Awww tell him I say hi," I replied. "Will do!" He opened the door for Serina then stepped out behind her. "What's this," he asked picking something up from the floor. "Oh shit." "Wassup Spin," Diggy asked. He looked around the hallway then pulled Ri back in and shut the door. "Shit, shit, shit," was all he said as he looked at the paper again. "What the hell is wrong with you," I asked. He looked up @ me then looked back at the note and handed it to Diggy. Diggy looked upset as he read it. "The fuck is this," he asked standing up and dropping the note."What's going on," I asked. No one was saying anything about this note. Then Roger picked it up. After reading it, he looked up at me then back at the note. "Crap," he mumbled. "So no one's gonna talk to me about that damn note," I yelled. Diggy looked at me with worried eyes. I was now nervous. All three of them standing there looking pissed and worried at the same damn time. This can't be good. Diggy looked over to Spin. "Spin, take Ri home. I need to talk to Lexi alone," he said. "What's going on," she asked. "I'll tell you later," Spin replied. "C'mon." Roger gave Diggy the note back and walked over to me. "Stay safe," he said hugging me. With that, they all left but not before putting their hoods back on their heads to minimize the chances of being seen. Diggy locked the door behind them. He even double locked it. He took a deep breath, then turned to walk over to the bed. He still hasn't looked at me. "Digg?" No answer. "Diggy, please talk to me. What's going on?" He finally looked up at me. He walked over to where I was sitting and sat beside me. "I'm sorry," he said. What?! "Sorry? Sorry for what," I asked. "I thought I could keep you safe for a while," he said. He was confusing me even more. "What do you- Diggy, can you just spit it out please?" He just shook his head and handed me the note. It read:

You thought I was playing right? Never underestimate me! I will get what I want! Remember, we're watching you.

We're watching you. "Oh my gosh. Diggy, they know we're here." He just nodded. "I know," he replied. "I'm sorry," he repeated. I looked at him and spoke again. "For what?" "I feel like I let you down again," he replied. "Hey." I turned his head in my direction and took his hand. "You didn't let me down. This isn't your fault. You didn't tell them or anyone else besides our friends that we're here. You didn't do anything." He nodded. "But I'm not safe here Diggy. Spin was right. I need to get out of here. I think it's best if I move after the baby's born." "Where," he asked. "I don't know yet. Somewhere far. Maybe another country or to another state." He looked like he was gonna say something but quickly changed. "You're right," he said. "But, how am I gonna see my son? You can't just take him from me. I won't let you take him from me." After a few seconds of silence, he got up and went to the balcony. He's right. I can't take his son away from him. That's not right. I followed him out to the balcony. "Diggy?" No answer. I was now standing beside him. "You're right. I can't take him away from you. That's wrong. I just wanna keep him safe and I don't know what else to do. It's like every time I feel like I'll be fine, she just comes back and I'm tired of it. She threatened the baby that night too and I just-" I was interrupted by a gentle, passionate kiss. Part of me wanted to push him away and end it, but another part of me didn't. Instead of stopping, I kissed him back. It became a make out session that lasted for maybe a minute. He eventually stopped. He stood there with his forehead against mine breathing a little heavy. "Damn," he whispered. "I miss your lips. I miss you. I miss us." "Digg, I-" "shhh. I know I shouldn't have done that. I just...I had to." He was still standing a bit close. "I'll handle this okay. Don't worry about anything." He then stepped inside. He picked up his phone and headed for the door. "Goodnight," he said. "Wait! Where are you going," I asked. He turned to face me again. "I'm staying in the other room tonight. I just need some time to think about...everything. After that kiss...I think it's best if I just stay in the other room." With that, he walked out. Did that really just happen? Did we really just...kiss? Damn, why didn't I stop it? I'm not saying that Diggy and I will "never" get back together, never say never. We don't know what the future holds. Just not right now. Not while we're dealing with some psycho who wants me and my baby out of the picture and out of Diggy's life. I'm not gonna lie, I did like that. He always knew just how to calm me down and each kiss did just that, just like this one did. I wish things weren't so damn complicated. Why can't we all just go back to being happy? I've been spending a lot if time with Diggy and it kinda feels like how it was before. I honestly feel like I'm falling for him all over again. I just don't know what to do. I don't wanna get hurt again. We've just been through so much. But then again, we were great together. We had that relationship that single people dreamed of having, and people in a relationship envied. What should I do? Should I give us another chance?

I was sitting out on the balcony just relaxing and doing what calms me down best, listening to music. Pandora was playing all the great throwbacks and some recent songs. It was definitely my best friend right now. As I did that, I thought about some things. Things like how I met Diggy, to everything going on now. I actually stopped paying attention to the music. I was hearing it, but I wasn't listening. Well, until my phone vibrated and interrupted my thoughts. It was a text from Diggy. "Once again, don't worry about anything. Just relax and let me handle it. We're going out tomorrow. Get some rest. Goodnight beautiful. See you tomorrow." That's when I realized the song that was playing. It was "Next" by Sevyn Streeter. The part it was on was "how could my ex boyfriend be my next boyfriend?" "Really Pandora? Really?" I paused the song and took my earphones out. "We're going out tomorrow? Where this boy takin me though?" What does he have planned. I picked up my phone and texted back. "Where are we going," I asked. He replied saying "it's a surprise. Now get some rest ;)." Well then, I guess I'll find out tomorrow.