• Bts Angst •

「 namjoon 」

I hate it....i hate the fact i still love you even if you cheat on me many many times...

I hate the fact that i never left you and still stayed by your side everytime you beg me to stay when i saw you kissing another woman....

I hate the fact that im still accepting all these facts....i hate the fact that...i never left you....

Why do i even loved you?

Maybe its because of your charming acts...your handsome features...your cute acts...your warm embrace...cute dimples...very caring and gentle...

Why do i even hate you?

Maybe its because of you cheating many times...everynight you thought i was already asleep you always bring girls and make love with them in the guestroom...why did i know?...everymorning when you left for 'work' when i clean the house i can see the dresses or clothes of the girls you bring everynight...you...when i caught you...you still beg me to stay...

Because you always say that you cant live without me...and because i love you...i stayed...

But this time its different....

"Joonie~ the food is ready"i called sweetly "not hungry"he says as he quickly tapped on his computer "work later its saturday cmon lets--"i was cutted off by him slamming his fists on the table standing up

"Can you please fucking shut up?!look cant you see im busy?!i have so much to catch on!"

"Catch on?youre always at work how could you even miss a thing?"i asks "shut up dont pretend that you dont know i always fuck girls"he growled...how could he say that to my face?wheres my joonie?

"Look i love you ok?why do you even do this?is there something wrong?if here is then lets talk--"

"Talk?!lets talk?!what the fuck y/n!talk!thats the reason i do it!you dont have time for me...everytime your always at your work work!"

I looked at him in disbelief"no time?...i always fucking spend my time with you!i even almost got fired!"i shouted back"pft, you werent even there when i need you!when i call you when i was at work you wont answer...i had problems that time and you werent there to help me!i even thought you were fucking some guy and maybe i was right--"

I slapped him in the face he has gone too far..."if you just want me to leave you could just say it...if youre dont with me you could always just say it...but remember this...i would never fuck some random guy....im not a slut...im not a whore...and you fucking know that....but what you just said just made me realize i just fucking wasted 5 years with you...i realized you still dont trust me...i realized...you werent the one for me..."there goes my tears

I went upstairs and packed up my things and left without saying any word....

Namjoon's POV
What the fuck did i just do....

I just lost the love of my life...

I just lost my life...

I just lost my everything...my lover...