• Bts Angst •

「 taehyung － 3 」

Im sitting beside her...holding her hand...

Why did i did that?...i dont know why...

This is all my fault...

They threatened me...they said they will hurt y/n...i dont want that to happen...but agreeing to the plan...it just hurted her...

I didnt think straight...i didnt think about what will happen...im so stupid

My tears cant stop flowing...

By looking at her...less than a second my whole body is already full by guilt...

Just looking at her innocent face...i want to die...im regretting every second of what happened

I just humilliated her...i just embarrassed her infront of many students

She is so innocent...she is pure...she is so kind...she is funny...i miss the way we cuddle before there were an 'us'

I miss the way she giggle at my not funny jokes...i miss the way she holds my hand...i miss the way she gently kiss my cheeks...

I miss the kisses...

I miss the hugs...

I miss her laugh

Her smile

Her bundle of joy

Eveytime i look at her...i remember the way she made me blush by her small actions...the way she make me shy in just her cute appearance

The way she make me feel special...just by saying...three words...'i love you'

All i wanted to do was cry...i want the ground to open up and eat me

I dont know if y/n will ever forgive me...

I dont know if y/n...will ever love me...

All i wanted to do was say sorry...so thats what i did..even if she is sleeping i know she can hear me...

I love her very much...and i cant bear to lose her...but what happened earlier just made me realize i ALMOST lost her...again

And i dont want to live my day without her...

When we both broke up

I knew something was missing

And it was her

But i was just denying it...i knew without her my life is uncomplete

My life is perfect with her...i couldnt even imagine my life without her...

Im scared...im scared of what will happen if she wokes up...or if she never wakes up...

But all of that went upside down

When i finally opened my eyes and realized...im in her grave...

I realized that was last week...she was gone...because of me...if i could turn back the time...if i could make this right

But i couldnt...