• Bts Angst •

「 hoseok － 3 」

Author's POV
She felt so helpless and hopeless, she couldn't feel nothing. She had already drained tears. Ever since her doctor came and told her about the misunderstanding she felt somewhat just empty inside.

Suddenly she just feels tired and then later on she'll feel hurt when she thinks about hoseok once again. Her heart aching so bad whenever she thinks about hoseok once again.

Everything was a mess for her, she didn't know what to do next. It just all felt useless. She lost her bestfriend who is her first love, so what's the use now?

She's just sick of crying cuz she knows it won't do nothing but just give her dark circles underneath her eyes.

She was shocked at how eveything turned upside down so quickly, she still couldn't proccess everything that was happening.

'I lost everything'

'I lost my parents'

'i lost my friend'

'I lost myself'－ the girl badly wants to escape from herself. It's slowly killing her inside. She didn't know whether should she be happy or sad. Happy because hoseok is actually safe all this time or sad because when she dies she won't be able to see hoseok ever again.

But she just knew that things won't go back the same way they were used to before. She didn't want to expect and assume that everything's gonns be alright, how can she do that in the first place?

She just want a break, she's gonna die anyway so here she is. Standing on a chair with a rope tied on the ceiling and the other end is wrapped around her neck.

Her right hand help onto the rope while the other was on her phone, she jumped when her phone suddenly starts ringing. She choked on her own saliva when she saw the caller's id.

It's Jung Hoseok

She took a deep breath and answered the call, she knew this is probably the last time she'll be able to hear hoseok's voice.

"Y/n?!is that you?please talk to me!I'm coming over--"the gurl quickly placed her other hand over her mouth and muffled her own cries.

"Are you crying--"the girl interrupted him when she finally speaks up "d-don't forget me h-hoseokie"before hoseok could even protest the girl had already hang up.

She threw her phone across the room and closed her eyes. This is it, she took a deep bresth before finally kicking the chair－

－and then blackness took over her

Hoseok's pov
Then she hang up...I was panicking...I quickly told he boys what happened as we rushed to y/n's house

We tried calling her phone again but she just won't answer...

I.was.worried...afraid...scared of what will happen next

I found out that she was the one who has a lung cancer...

When we got to her house we banged the door until it was opened up wide as silence greeted us

"Y/N!!!!"We started to call her and roamed her house as we reached her room...I was hesitating to open the door

But I opened it anyways...traveling y/n...hanging on a rope

"Y/n!!"WE quickly got her down...as I throw the rope away and held her close to me "y/n!please wake up!"Tears started to flow on my cheeks....

The boys called he ambulance as I have her around my arms

"Y-y/n please"j called for her name...many many times...but all I get from her is silence...

Her hands were cold...her skin was pale...her lips were blue/violet....

"Y/n...i-I'm...s-sorry please...come back"i sniffed and cried...but there was no use...

She was gone...and it was my fault...