• Bts Angst •

「 hoseok － 2 」

I got taken back a bit at how coldly he has been treating me recently, i mean i didn't really do anything wrong except for the fact that I've been keeping a secret from him.

It just hurts so bad but no matter what i aint going to give up on taking care of hoseok

I can do this

I y/n wilk never give up just for hoseok

Ill do anything for him..because i love him

I love him to the moon and back

Today is his birthday but his mother told me he was planning on going to canada. Ofcourse i was shocked, afraid, and scared.

Whos going to take care of him?

What if something could happen to him?

I sighed, maybe i should tell them the truth. They really needed to know about it so i called for both of his parents to talk.

"Uh goodafternoon mrs and mr jung"i stood up and bowed to them "oh hi y/n, so what did you want to talk about?"y/n fiddled with his fingers and looked down taking a deep breath before looking up again.

"W-well uh can you not--i mean can you not let hoseok go to canda?"they looked at me with curious expression on their faces as they asked me why

"It's hoseok..he's ill, his life is in danger. He's in a critical state.

An illness..that you can't cure anymore...hoseok is dying."I chocked out "w-what?your j-joking right?"Mrs.jung asks

I gave her the envelope which tells them the whole painful truth about everything. My eyes fell on their faces, tears were already falling from their eyes.

Mrs. Jung covered her mouth before looking at me "S-since when did this--"i frowned "last last week"mr. Jung placed his hands on his wife's back and tried comforting her and to stop her from crying too much.

I was about to say something when suddenly i heard a voice behind me. I quickly turned around to see a furious hoseok "W-why didn't you tell me about this y/n"i stammered as i try to find the right words to say but nothing is coming out.

"Do you think keeping a secret like this doesn't fucking hurt?!"he yells ss i watch his eyes brimed with tears so i quickly held his hand "i didn't mean to hide it from you hoseok"i say as i feel my own tears escaping from my eyes.

"Then when were you planning on telling me this?!"he yanked his hand back and suddenly pushed me making me stumble backwards

"I-i was just--"he interrupted me by yelling in frustration "y/n things like these aren't supposed to be kept hidden from us!especially when it's about things like these!i'm you fucking bestfriend!why would you hide such a thing from me?!"he yells but this time he was just crying

"i'm always ready to die y/n and you know that. Im always ready to die!its no big deal for me!but you could've atleast told me about this because fuck this is still a big deal for me y/n!"i flinched at his voice as i try to avoid eye contact, feeling guilty

"Hoseok please i did this for you..its my duty to keep you safe even if im a girl.."

"I don't think i could be able to see you anymore"that's when i looked up at him finally making eye contact "d-don't talk to me ever again, i need time to process this shit."he growls as i look at him with pleading eyes

"H-hoseok p-please no--"he ignored me and went upstairs to his room. I closed my eyes sobbing quite loudly and let myself drop on my knees as i feel a hand on my shoulder.

"I understand what you did and why you hid it from us..but it's his life were talking about, he should've known about this sooner"i didn't speak instead i nodded

Then i stood up and bowed to them "i'm really sorry about what i did"i quickly got out of their house and drove myself back to my house.

" Focus on the fucking road y/n "i say to myself as i angrily wipe my tears and punched the wheel in frustration.

All i did was trying to help him and protecting him, i know hiding things like that is really shitty but..*sighs again* what can i expect..he's never gonna forgive me for that..

I parked my car and went inside my apartment to my room. I shut the door and laid on my bed crying and crying until there were no more tears left to cry.

I closed my eyes as i take a deep breath trying to calm myself down. I feel so freakin tired and i feel like my lungs are going to explode from all of this crying.

Author's POV
It had been two weeks since the two had talk to each other and they had never seen each other since then.

Y/n decided to go for a check up since she has been vommitting and getting really bad head aches and hard with breathing

"Ms. Y/n?"y/n stand up as she went inside the doctor's office. After the check up her doctor told her that the results will be given tomorrow so she still had to wait again but she didn't complain about it and just lets it be.

When she got home she plopped down to her bed as she takes a deep breath

Everyday...every afternoon...everynight...she always leave a message for hoeok...he always tdxt him sometimes leave a voice message even if he told her not to contact her

But ofcourse she thought that he was still ignoring her even her texts or voice mails but she thought wrong. Hoseok would always read every single text that she had sent him and he would always listen to every voice mail he would receive from her.

Even if he was angry he'd be lying if he says that he doesn't care for her anymore. He couldn't careless anymore if she always sends him a voicemail and a text.

Because as time passes he is getting the use of it

After that day
Hoseok's side

It was early in the morning and there was a knock on the door which hoseok would find weird because it is too early in the morning.

He didn't think too much anymore and just opened the door revealing his friend. He raised his eyebrow "yo chim whatcha doin here?"

"Hey hoseok y/n wants me to give this to you"hoseok raised both of his eyebrows and looks at the white sheet of paper in his hands

He hesistated to take it at first but in the end he took it, he closed he door after him and his friend had a small talk since his friend still needed to run some errands.

He went to his room and lay down on his bed as he opens the letter but quickly closed it again and placed it on the table.

He didn't want to read it yet, he just doesn't feel like it.

On the other hand y/n had a visitor as well, her doctor. It was an unusual time for her doctor to come but who is she to complain anyway.

"Ms. y/n we are very sorry."y/n tilted her head "huh?for what?"her doctor sighed and gave her an envelop"remember the letter that has been send to this adress last 3 weeks ago?

It was for hoseok right?there a huge misunderstanding it was actualy for you"y/n opened the envelop and felt a lump on her throat.."you have a lung cancer Ms. Y/n"she then felt her heart sank at what she heard.

On the other side
"There was a huge misunderstanding mr. hoseok, you don't have a lung cancer"hoseok felt his heart racing so fast, his hand over his mouth and the same as his mother. "It was actually for another person"

Hoseok closed his eyes and sighed in relief. He lets his parents talk to the doctor while he still sits with a shocked and happy expression plastered in his face.

Author:WHO WANTS PART 3?!