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「 hoseok － 1 」

《 She loves to sleep － 1 》

Hoseok's POV

She loves to sleep

She always loves to sleep, although she sleeps regularly i still wonder why she's always sleepy even when were going on a date or whatso ever bt nonetheless i'm just happy that i get to spend my time with her.

"How's your sleep?" I asked her while brushing her hair. Looking outside the window, seeing that it's raining.

"Good."she shortly answered, i look down and softly smiled when i see her looking up at me with a loving smile.

I gently hugged her and planted a kiss on her forehead as i continue to brush her hair which she always enjoyed.

"Are you okay?" I ask worriedly when she lets out a sigh before turning away from me. I gently grabbed her hand and kissed it.

I gently grabbed her chin and turns her head so that she's facing me. She looks at me with a soft expression while i observe her features. Her soft hair, her brown orbs that when you stare at it too much you could drown in them, her soft flawless skin, her lips that when it forms a smile i always find myself falling inlove all over again.

I leaned in and kissed her lips. I pulled away and gently caress her cheek as i notice the hint of worry and sadness in her eyes. I don't want to ask her why, i'm afraid of hearing her answer and being correct about my assumptions.

"Just tell me if you're not, okay?" She nodded and hugged me ever so tightly "i wish i can stay here..forever"i look down at her, meeting her eyes with mine, locking eye contact with her.

"What do you mean?"i ask as i continue to caress her back "nothing"she paused before pulling away bringing her hand up in my cheek and caressing it ever so gently. She smiles "let's just enjoy this moment"

After an hour of cuddling, laughing, and sharing stories with her i told her that we need to go since it's getting dark. "But i don't want to go yet"she pouts, i ruffle her hair and gave her a warm smile "don't worry there's always still a tomorrow"

She sighs and smiles after before standing up and pulling me with her. Once we got her things we went outside my house and took her to the waiting shed.

As we were walking i feel something warm in my hand, i turned my head to look at her "i need to sleep"she softly whispers before rubbing her eye with her other hand while i chuckle at her being so adorable.

"Just promise me you'll visit me tomorrow again"i say pouting definitely not wanting her to go home yet "Of course. I'll comeback, for you."she answers and immediately stands on her tippy toes before leaning in and kissing me on the lips.

Once we reached the waiting shed i turned to her and held her by the waist before hugging her "i love you, y/n"i softly whispered enough for her to hear. I pulled away but still holding her waist.

"I love you too"she smiled and gave me one last kiss before going inside the bus. Once i see her take her seat i wave at her and she waves back.

"Take care."she mouthes and i gave her a nod "take care too."i mouthed back then the bus drove away.

Y/n..she is my girlfriend. Ever since we met, i noticed that she always loves to sleep. Her house is a bit far away from mine that's why she always takes the bus. We both love eachother, it's been a year and a half since we met.

At first it was awkward between the both of us, it felt like everything is not real. It just felt too good to be true, but here we are. I always told her that i insist on going to her house instead of her going to me since sometimes it's a bit dangerous but she told me it's fine. She told me that it's more quiet and peaceful in my house so i just let it be.

Maybe she's just still not ready for me to meet her parents, but it's fine. I don't want to rush her into things she doesn't want to do yet.

The next day i waited for her again in the waiting shed, excited because were going on a date and i get to spend my time with her again.

Once she got out of the bus she immediately jumps and hugs me tightly "i miss you"she says but her words muffled since her face is buried on the crook of my neck.

"I miss you too princess"i smile softly after pulling away and ruffling her hair. We both went to the church and said our prayers. After doing that we both went to a park and there we spend our whole afternoon eating icecream and walking around.

When we both go on a dates, we always go to fun places. But today she told me she just wants to go to the church and here in the park. To me it doesn't matter where are and where we go, as long as i'm with her everything's alright and fun.

"Hoseokie"i hummed and turned my head to look at her "yes munchkin?"i ask caressing her hand with my fingers. "I talked to my psychologist"she quietly say but enough for me to hear while i watch her look away and completely avoided eye contact.

"Oh, you have one? Is it about your sleeping problem?"i ask tilting my head and then she lets out a sigh before stopping in her tracks and i did the same.

"Hoseok, would you be angry if i leave you?"she asks before finally locking eye contact with me. I furrowed my eyebrows "what kind of question is that?"i chuckled nervously but she only ignored my question and looks at me with some what guilty and sad eyes.

She won't leave me right?she won't do that..right?

She suddenly turned around and fully faced me and held both of my hands while i look at her with worried eyes.

"Hoseok, God knows how much I want to be with you. He knows how much I love you. But.. but i also want to be with my parents and my brother."

I furrowed my eyebrows, confused. Isn't she with her family?back in her house?

"W-what do you mean?"i nervously ask as i look into her eyes trying to find answers.

"I love you, but I need to leave."her voice cracked in the end as she looks at me now with glossy eyes, with tears wanting to escape.

"Y/n..stop joking with me. Please stop, this isn't funny anymore."i say feeling my heart racing so fast, my eyes building up tears again as i tried to resist the annoyance building up inside of me

"I need to wake up, hoseok. And I'll never come back."that's when my tears had escaped from my eyes. I don't get it..i don't..get it

"Y/n w-what do you mean wake up, y-y/n stop playing with me..you said you love me but why are you l-leaving me?i could always come with y--"she cuts me off and shakes her head

"You don't understand"

"Then explain!"i yell as i feel more tears coming while she looks at me with sad eyes. Her hands found it's way to my cheeks and i close my eyes placing my hands on top of hers, feeling her warm skin gently touch mine.

As i thought my whole world crash and fall apart, the next thing she said made my world fall apart even more.

"Hoseok"she paused, i opened my eyes "y/n please tell me this is just a bad dream.."that's when she cried even more.

"Hoseok, I'm going to die if I'll never stop doing lucid dream. If I'm awake here, I'm sleeping there and when i'm asleep here, i'm awake there..in the real world."i shake my head and cried even more until i found myself on my knees begging for her to stay.

" All of you doesn't exist in reality..in the real world. I'm sorry baby, you're just part of my d-dream."

I guess it is just a bad dream after all.

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A/n: do ya'll want part two or nah?