• Bts Angst •

「 namjoon 」

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Y/n's POV
I told myself to ignore him..i told myself to dont listen to every words he says..

I told to myself.."you are not fat"

I looked at myself at the mirror..am i really fat?

I looked at myself..disgustingly

Slowly realizing that i am really fat

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"Y/n i told you,you are not fat!your body is in its right shape!"jin said while looking at me with concerned eyes

I just nodded in reply..
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"God y/n,is it just me or you just got fatter?"namjoon smirked

"You are so ugly y/n, do you know that?well now you know"he said looking at me up and down

I ignored him..
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I just can't help but think about what namjoon said,that im fat,that im ugly..

I looked at myself at the mirror once again.."you need to eat less"i said pointing at the mirror

I want to cry..so i let myself cry..

"Dont worry y/n..from now on i will not eat..and i will just drink water"
After a few weeks
"Have you gained weight y/n?"namjoon asked me while i looked at the table while my hands were turning into a fist

"You look uglier from the last time i saw you"he said "what do you want kim namjoon..can you just please leave me alone"i spoke while he rolled his eyes

"Well i just want to imfrom you that your getting fatter and uglier..its bad for your health"he sarcastically said then he walked away

I sighed..i shouldnt have ate that pancake earlier

It just made me look fatter..now namjoon is teasing me more..

Author's POV
"Y/n!oh my goodness!your are so skinny!"jin said almost yelling looking at me concerned

"Is this better?""YOUR COLLAR BONE IS SHOWING TOO MUCH!AND YOU ASK ME IF ITS BETTER?!"he shouted

He grabbed my wrist and dragged me to the field

He placed his bag on the ground and took out some food "here eat it"

"No"yes

"Eat it y/n now!"

"I told you no!"please i want to eat give it to me

"Y/n can you please stop?!look at yourself!this is too much!i told you!dont listen to what the others and namjoon says its not true,you are beautiful and your perfect just the way you are..dont change yourself just because of others opinions"he say placing his hand on my shoulder

I pushed it off "you,you dont understand. Look at me?!im fat!i look disgusting!i dont even belong here!and i dont even fit with all of them..why did you even chose me to be your friend in the first place?!"

He sighed and glared at the groubd..i noticed that he was about to shed a tear

"Why can't you just see that im inlove with you y/n.."

"Out of all the people here why me?!"

"Why can't you appreciate the little things i do for you?"

"Can't you see that im getting fatter?!look at me!i look so fvcking ugly!"

"Why can't you just see that i am concerned about you and your health.."

"Jin please..dont worry about me..im just a nobody,you shouldnt be my friend, you shouldnt be talking to me"

"Im scared that someday ill loose you y/n.."

"Just stop okay?dont worry. And stop giving me food and stop with all of this bullshit..i know that were friends but you dont need to worry about someone like me.."

"Am i really just going to be your friend..and nothing more?"

(Oops got a little carried away from there!i forgot this is a namjoon one💖)

Author's POV
Weeks has passed and jin has been ignoring y/n

Y/n noticed it and she became sad..suddenly she missed him

Namjoon continued to tease her..but when he always do he became closer to her

And to the point where he fell for her..but he noticed that she got really skinny

Until in a day where y/n didnt came to school

Until in that day jin and namjoon wanted to talk to her she was absent

Y/n was absent because she didnt feel like going to school

She was crying all night because of her situation right now,she was crying also because of jin

Namjoon and jin got worried especially when she was absent for 2 weeks already

Jin decided to visit her

Jin stood outside the door of her house and knocked on the door

"Y/n?"Jin said her name loudly for her to hear him

He knocked multipule times and no one answered

And after a few minutes the door was openned buy a guy

"Oh hey hyung"the guy waved "hey kook, just wondering why is y/n absent for the past 2 weeks?"jin asked

"O-oh her?she just feel sick for some reason so we decided that she shouldnt go to school and stuff"jin looked at him

Jungkook sighed knowing that jin didnt believe it

"Look..she passed away"

Namjoon's POV
I sighed and closed the book that i was reading..i miss her

If your wondering who well its y/n,yes her. I know i tease her and bully her alot

But who knew i'd fall for her..i guess bullying made me get to know her more.

And when i thought about it i started to get nervous around her and i dont know what to do. I get butterflies in my stomach well guess this is what you call falling inlove?

But i noticed that, her friend really likes her. I think that her friend's name is jin?

Yeah..him

Its clearly obvious that he likes her no scratch that he loves her

I also noticed that y/n was very skinny..i could clearly see her bones in her wrists, and in her collarbone

She looks so weak..and i know that it was my fault why she is like that

I was so dumb and so stupid to even do that to her..i shouldnt have done that right?

I got worried when i saw her in that state and especially that she was absent and she wasnt at school for 2 weeks straight

You dont know how much i want to hug her,to tell her im sorry, to tell her how much i like her

But i know everything wont turn out like that..

I will just keep my distance..because i know that her friend likes her.. i dont want to ruin their friendship and their closeness

Ill just leave her be to him

I know that she is better off with him..i want the best for her and i want her to be happy

If i confess everything will turn out a mess,i know that she will just get hurt when she is with me.

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"She passed away..."my head quickly moved up and i faced him

"What.."tears started to form in my eyes..

No..