• Bts Angst •

「 jimin 」

Hey readers!this is a request from alycia417...sorry for not updating guys...i had a lack of sleep and i just woke up so...yeah...im really sorry

AND FOR THOSE WHO REQUESTED FROM THE 'MESSAGES' IN WATTPAD I WILL MAKE THEM AND ALSO PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!DO NOT SEND MESSAGES IN THE 'MESSAGE'THINGY IN WATTPAD...its making me feel guilty whenever someone messages and i cant reply back😔Thank you for understanding

JUST FREAKING READ THIS👆👆👆👆

Alia's POV
"Why do i always get the bad stuff..."i muttered trying not to cry as my mother continued to scold me

"I TOLD YOU TO GET AN A!YET YOU GET A F!"and with that my mother slapped me right across my face

Yes it hurts...but i got used to it

"Im so disapointed at you!"she shouted "mother its only an F it doesnt matter im still top--"she cutted me off with a slap...again

"OFCOURSE IT MATTERS!ITS YOUR FREAKING GRADE ALIA!YOU GOT AN F"she shouted

"Im sorry mother ill try harder next time"i said "If you have a F next time you are!--"she was cutted off by my father

"Melinda stop that!i know she could do better"my father smiled at me

"SHUT UP!"my mother shouted then she turned to me "YOUR SUCH A DISAPOINTMENT!WHY CANT YOU BE LIKE YOUR BROTHER NAMJOON?!"she shouted gripping at my hair

"AGAIN!AND AGAIN!"i slapped my mother's hand to ungrip my haif

"YOU LITTLE--"i cutted her off "IM SO FREAKING TIRED WITH THIS SHIT MOM!WHY CANT YOU JUST BE PROUD OF ME EVEN ONCE?!WHY DO YOU ALWAYS COMPARE ME TO NAMJOON?!

OH RIGHT OFCOURSE!BECAUSE HE IS YOUR FAVORTIE!YOU ALWAYS TELL ME WHAT TO DO!YOU ALWAYS WANTED ME TO DO THE THINGS I DONT WANT TO DO!did you even once asked me if i liked it?"i asked crying and in the corner of my eye i saw namjoon looking at me with sad eyes

My mom was speechless then i ran to my room packing my things then i left "YOUNG LADY COMEBACK HERE!"she shouted crying

I ignored her and got a cab

Im so done with my life...i hate it...so much

Everything kept getting worse

I hate my life so freaking much i just want to end it...

I got an hotel and entered my room

When i entered my room i quickly locked the door and just dropped my things to the ground and sat down on the bed crying so bad

"Dont worry y/n...i can just kill myself...maybe tomorrow...first i wanna eat"i said to myself

I still have school tomorrow so...but not that i like school...i just wanna say bye bye to my friend cindy...

But im not gonna say ill kill myself...ill just say i will move to another school or something

I went to the nearest 7eleven and baught a ramen

I sat down and ate it there...

I really hate thinking about my life...theres nothing exciting about it...

Its boring and really a pain in the butt

My life is nothing but a trash

I cant believe im still alive up until now...if no one had stopped me from dying that day then...i would be happy and free right now