Turn of Life

32.Unknown feelings

Shweta Pov

Flashback continues...

"I won't let you go sweetheart" he said, making butterflies flatter in my stomach.

His arms are still holding me by my waist. I'm trying to remain cool but my heart is betraying me. It's responding so much to his touch that I could hear it's sound very clearly.

God! This is embarrassing!

"Harish, please. What if anyone sees us?" I asked, but still hoping he would hold me close.

"Yea, right. Sorry, I... I... Just" he removed his hands and I felt so bad. Did he just regret it? The very thought was enough for my heart to ache.

I turned around to see him rubbing his nape in annoyance, looking everywhere but me. Did he really regret it?

I tried to speak but nothing came out of my mouth. He slowly looked into my eyes. I could see so much adoration, so much care and so much love!

What?

Love?

Does he love me?

If yes then why would he regret hugging me?

Wait! Harish loves me?

The butterflies in my stomach, this weird yet comfortable silence, this knot in my stomach, this unknown beautiful sensations...are they signs of love?

But I'm still not sure about my feelings towards Harish. Of course, I like him. He's my saviour, my guide, my well wisher, my best friend, but my love?

Am I ready for it?

Will this love last long?
Will this be a fairytale love or
Is it just a mere attraction?

I'm so confused!..

Keeping aside my thoughts, I mentally slapped myself to remind me that I have to focus on my anger in Harish. He laughed at me! At my weakness!

He is my best friend and I expected him to support me but he...he just made fun of me!

I hate him so much!

"Shweta" Harish's voice broke my chain of thoughts.

Suddenly, he calling me sweetheart came to my mind.

Did he really call me that?

Anyways, I have to be angry at him, even though I know that my anger will melt just seeing his puppy dog eyes. Actually, he made my anger melt in his arms, but no! I'm not going to show him that I'm affected by him, by his touch.

"Shweta, I'm...I'm sorry" he said, without looking into my eyes.

I'm right! He regrets it!

But why do I feel so sad? It's not like I want him, or his touch, or him not regretting it. But still, my heart always betrayes me in case of Harish!

"Hmm... it's ok. I know it's just the heat of the moment. I understand" I said and turned to walk out of the building when Harish held my wrist again tightly, making me turn, to look at him again.

"Oh god Shweta! I'm saying sorry for laughing at you, for making fun of you when you told me about your fear and not for the ....umm.." he stammered.

Hearing his words, I felt very light at heart, just like a feather. The sadness which occupied my heart a few seconds ago, completely vanished and I felt so refresh.

"No, I'm not going to forgive you. I thought you would understand me and help me but you laughed at me! How dare you!" I yelled at him,not focusing on the special moment we shared a few seconds ago.