even though i am used to your constant change in attitude towards me
i sometimes don't know how to deal with your peremptory moods
when five minutes before you were on the way to opening yourself
up to me like my favorite novel
i know you told me it's because you are trying not to want more than friends
when i can't give you what you want
i would rather have you as a friend than lose you
i have done nothing to you other than shower you in my support
and provide a shoulder for you to lean on
no matter how many times you turned away
i was always there for you, even in the times i needed you
to be there for me and you looked at me with a face of
indifference and only came back when your gregarious ways prevailed your passive ones
you tell me you only act this way so you don't fall for me again
to the point of no return. i understand that
what i don't understand is before when i let my guard down for
you after so long of making sure the cement was even
you showed me every reason why i had built them up so high
so, tell me how this makes sense when you didn't fall for me in the first place
when you were distant, it was torture, when you gave me your undivided attention
i was on cloud nine. you played with my heart because you were unsure
of who yours beat for
Yet, i still look at you with you with the same friendliness i had in my eyes
before it turned into something more
i'm sorry you can't deal with letting your guard down for me unless
it's in short bursts. I never know how the conversation is going to go
when we talk. you're a familiar sea with waves
that still break my bones.
-is it too much to ask for us just to be friends?
