how did you do it?
how did you spend almost every moment with me
getting to know all my spots and crevices that I've never let anyone else get anywhere near
knowing how much I loved you with every passing moment
and how much you did not
how did you fall asleep holding me every night
wishing it was her
while I sat there in your arms finally not wishing to be somewhere else
how did you not fall for me like I did you?
how did you break me so much? and be okay with it?
-maybe I'll never understand. maybe I never want to.
