Tw: There really ain't one but just be warned this is a bit 'gross' or 'descriptive'
Food is really unattractive
I get a few bites into a meal and then I feel full and sick that if I take another bite I will throw up..
I've started putting less cereal in my bowl and I skip lunch, I barley eat dinner and I'm never hungry..
Just thinking about being full is making me sick
And I thought at first it was because I ate slow
So I ate quicker
And that didn't help
So here's a basis on what I did:
Ate slowly and focus on watching a movie in my iPad but still ate - somewhat worked
Ate quickly but focus on my iPad - nope
Ate slowly without a focus, just focusing on eating - really badly backfired
Ate fast with no focus - again nope
Nothing works and I just don't want to eat.. food just isn't appealing
Sure I wanna eat
But I just can't-
I just wanna cough it up sometimes or just not eat it because I hate feeling sick (idm actually being sick)
sometimes when I eat my breakfast (a cup of cereal) I start feeling sick, I added less milk and it didn't change anything
Maybe I just can't be bothered
I'm worried
Because I have no motivation for work
I haven't done any work
And I'm REALLY behind
There's a bunch of overdue stuff
I'm avoiding smhw
And I really don't want to ft my friends because I don't know how long I can be happy for- them worrying about me will just make me more determined to torture myself and make myself feel sick to make them happy..
I will get better
But just not today
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RandomDon't read this if you are really sensitive or you know me.. idm if you read it just stay safe people This is just me describing my day with whatever's going on in my head