I'm so tired..
I think all the shitty things I've done to my body is finally catching up with me
I'm fine though..
I will be atleast
I keep thinking back to last night
I contradicted myself
and managed to upset someone
I really wish I had my blade
I just wanna feel the pain and the burn again
Shoving ice cold wet tissues on my arm to make it burn even more
Then I'll proceed to punch myself or pick at the scabs
I don't know why
I just wanna feel that pain again
I wanna see the blood again
I want the scars
I want what I deserve
Idm why I'm so obsessed with hurting myself every time I fuck up
I really want to talk to someone but I'll be bothering them and besides every time I help them, I wanna say something about my experiences or how I feel but I need to get it thru my head that nobody cares
And if they did you would only get mad at them anyway
You contradict yourself
Then claim this claim that
I just need to get over myself
YOU ARE READING
Diary? Idk..
RandomDon't read this if you are really sensitive or you know me.. idm if you read it just stay safe people This is just me describing my day with whatever's going on in my head