Diary? Idk..

Hopeless hope

There no point being hopeful

I don't want to get my hopes up about a house

It could just not happen

I'm not expecting luck to be on our side..

I'm not expecting karma to be nice..

I just want this one thing..

That everyone has

I just want a house.. a home.. a garden even

I want to escape this place

Free myself from chains that aren't gunna loosen until I get away from past places and experiences..

I'm being dragged down by whatever's under the water of regret

And I want to cut myself free

But I need to go into the water and face the demon and cut myself free (face the past) and then I need some wood or a log I can hold onto (hope) until I get to an island of some sort (a house..)

I don't want to be hopeful but I really want this..