I keep letting my guard down. Waiting for something to happen. Waiting for something to change.
Nothing is gunna change
This is just the truth now. It is the truth and it always will be,
So..
Let that music fills your head
If nobody sees the pain
Then nobody needs to know
No emotions. I need to cold
Numb it all- lock it away
So something other than wait
Waiting gets you no where
If you grit your teeth
Harden your heart
Grown cold to emotions
Thing could get better
Maybe they could?
I'm sick of everything
Everything needs to stop
The thoughts the jealousy
It's all unnormal
And bad
And stupid
And weak
Maybe if I just don't do emotions
I can just numb everything
Then I can't get hurt..
Build walls
Build defence
So I'm safe..
Maybe that way I can do less harm
Everything I've tried never works
1. Grieve
2. Think through the emotions
3. Deal with them head on
4. Try therapy/counciling
5. Talk about them
6. Erase them.
Everything and everything failed me
Well I won't let myself be hurt or failed that
Nothing can hurt me if I don't let it
So I won't.
Edit; I let something happen. Just makes me accept this statement more.
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Diary? Idk..
RandomDon't read this if you are really sensitive or you know me.. idm if you read it just stay safe people This is just me describing my day with whatever's going on in my head