Diary? Idk..

Hes testing me..

He put the knife in my hands

"Go on then."

"W-What?!"

"Go on just do it"

He didn't mean it like that

He was talking about the pepper..

I was so stupid- i just stood there panicking

Then Later I fell asleep on the swing seat at my step mums house

I relived the moment

But he meant it the way I thought

I woke up sweating and just slagged off as heat

What is his problem?

First with the stupid impression

Then he makes me cut a pepper but confuses me

Why is he testing me?

Is he mad?

Maybe..

He's mad because he knows? Or maybe because he blames himself?

No he's not like that

He's usually so nice so why did this change things

Fucking summer