It is 4am exactly
And I need to be at my nans for 1-1:30ish
But I'm gunna sleep in because I can't sleep
I just led there for a while (I think 30-40 minuets?) in complete silence
And I think it's cramps
But I can't fucking lie down any longer
I need to be sat up
But I can't sleep sat up
So I'm fucked
And I wanna cry but I also just wanna sleep
Why the fuck does this have to happen on the worst days?
And everyone tells me it's because I'm on my phone constantly instead of trying to sleep
I'm not always on my phone actually
I could lie here four three hours and just think without falling asleep because I just can't somedays
But I go on my phone and listen to soft music to make sure I don't drive myself insane or to doing something stupid
Ugh everything sucks.
I wrote a full story of just 30 odd rants on my Instagram (my private one ;-;)
And I then deleted it 30 minuets later because I knew nobody would see it for atleast another couple hours
And I thought it would make em feel better to get it out my head but it didn't
Nothing changed
I just wanna sleep :(
Fgs insomnia fuck off and go disturb someone else
YOU ARE READING
Diary? Idk..
RandomDon't read this if you are really sensitive or you know me.. idm if you read it just stay safe people This is just me describing my day with whatever's going on in my head