TW: descriptive throwing up
Heaving warning.. I never use tw's so if that thing makes you uncomfortable please leave now.I knew I had been pushing too much
I knew I was playing with fire
I knew I was going to get burned
I knew all of this
I knew- so why didn't I stop?
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I heaved and my muscles tensed. I hated the feeling of stomach acid burning my throat. Whatever I had eaten wasn't going to stay down I'd overeaten again but I'd never thrown up like this- I defiantly heaved again but I must've blanked it. it almost hurt.. my lip was bleeding again
Doing my best to not upset myself further I wiped my mouth with tissue
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I led against the wall.. yeah maybe this wasn't a good idea
I just wanted to be a pretty girl..
Or whatever monster I am
I pushed to hard.. ate to much.. exercised in this heat.. the clothes were to tight..
Why am I doing this..?
It's sickening to the head as words scream there way into unspoken rules.
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I looked at that bridge..
There was someone there just staring at the passing train
The wind was cooling my sweaty mess of hair
I almost spoke to them
God I hope there still alive
We're they just like me? Looking at the bridge watching and waiting for something to get better?
My lips bleeding again fuck..
I can ponder a million things
As the clocks tick
My brain races
Possibilities I can't even begin to explain in my head
Let alone with words..
Šø gö õń jüšt įgñørę thįś æñd dröŵń įt äłł ōüt ŵįth müšįć
Ŵę bøth kñōŵ
Liar..
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ESTÁS LEYENDO
Diary? Idk..
De TodoDon't read this if you are really sensitive or you know me.. idm if you read it just stay safe people This is just me describing my day with whatever's going on in my head