Those words ring in my head
Since I like writing emotions I'll just make up some story (unedited so it's shi-)
Footsteps drummed through the walls, the music filling my already busy head, why were the neighbours up? I don't really care, we never interact. I got up and grabbed the scissors from under my bed. Should I? I didn't have to tell anyone.. I pulled them to my arm and chose a spot, I let the music flow. There blunter than a blade so it didn't bleed as much as I wanted it to.
But after that first cut I knew I'd let myself down. I needed it. I'd broken so many rules and I had to obey them. Punishment was in order and I served it. Now I get to live with the lovely burning aftermath..
Drown my pain in water, it makes it burn more. I've let them down I might as well do it properly.
I felt guilty
I imagine how they would all feel if they found out
I don't know if I'll even post this
The burning on my arm and the ringing in my ear, the drowsy feeling plaguing my body, I just needed to sleep this off, I'll be able to build back my facade back up in the morning.
Nobody's awake anyway..
I'm starting to question wether it would matter if I didn't wake up in the morning
I just feel guilty
And so I should
The rules are bad, toxic- I'm well aware, but that doesn't make them any less harder to break
Heck I've only just started telling people
Certain people
You can't really trust anyone...
Anyway I'm gunna sleep cuz I can't keep my eyes open
Peace
And rip my 19 days of being clean..
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ESTÁS LEYENDO
Diary? Idk..
De TodoDon't read this if you are really sensitive or you know me.. idm if you read it just stay safe people This is just me describing my day with whatever's going on in my head