I had a dream..
And I had shorter hair, and I went to a different school, I don't remember what completely happened but I know that I ended up seeing my mum again, I remember crying and crying and saying things like this;
"You don't care! Because you left me!"
"I waited and waited but I waited for nothing- did you give up on me?"
"Do you even care about me?"And then I walked away
A science class or something
I was friends with someone and there were blades, my mum for some reason was in the classroom, I took one and hid it but somehow she noticed?
She asked me about it when I was leaving and I don't wanna say what I said because it hurts..
She took it off me and hugged me
And then promised to see me every weekend
And then I had like a flash of memory's
And I was happy..
Then I woke up..
I don't remember most the dream but I remember every word clearly..
This isn't the first dream I've had about my mum.. and they always happen when I feel suicidal
Is that my way of telling myself to stay alive?
Brain verses heart?
Is it my way of saying it's time to move on?
Either way I wake up shaking and sometimes crying
So maybe I don't like the outcome for some reason? Is there apart if the dream I'm forgetting?
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RandomDon't read this if you are really sensitive or you know me.. idm if you read it just stay safe people This is just me describing my day with whatever's going on in my head