Diary? Idk..

Why do you do this?

HEAVING WARNING THIS IS DESCRIPTIVE ABOUT THROWING UP AND GAGGING

Is this a sick game?

Making me lose my appetite

Dropping weight because food makes me gag

Eating is awful

I put the food in my mouth and I already feel sick

If food touches my throat I instantly want to gag

I feel sick after five minuets

Water makes it worse

So why do you do this?

You already me unstable and unable to function

So you take away the one normal thing

Eating

You make me feel sick when eating

Stomach acid burns my throat from when I've forced myself to eat try to and keep a stable weight

Gagging untill I eventually throw up

Dry broken lips that lib balm and other things can't fix

Constantly trying to brush my teeth to get rid of the feeling and smell

As if I didn't already have enough problems

Some things I don't mind

But it's rare

I can eat pizza and chips

I can eat some crisps

Sometimes cereal but it makes me feel sick

Cheese I can eat

I thought I was lactose intolerant but I can eat cheese and milk on its own doenst make me feel sick

Why did you have to do this?

Why?

You like playing games

Toying with emotions

This is fun to you isn't it?

A joke?

I have so much work but not an ounce of motivation

I can't even write anymore and that was a way to vent and express emotions..

So Thankyou and fuck you

And get. Out. My. Head.