Diary? Idk..

Welp

This is just some sick way for me to torture myself isn't it?

Because I can't just be happy

Lmao this is priceless

Not only have I left group chats- I'm ignoring messages and leaving people on read

I don't even have the guts to talk to anyone

There's only one person I'll talk to

My gf.. jeez she's an angel sent from the above I'm telling you

She's the best and I love her sfm

There was one other person but that needed quickly

Oh well

I mean everyone's still happy?

I got what I wanted in a sick twisted way

Now I have to sort my fucking head and do all 90+ pieces of overdue work :,D

I think at this point there really is something wrong with me

Like wtf who does this?

I'm self destructive

I don't even care tho- like good for me

I'm destroying everything around me because I don't know how to cope

In that case making things ten times worse for myself because my 'friends' kept me sane

I say 'friends' because I didn't even talk to half of them and all I can think of the other half is that their judging me constantly

Talk about unhealthy emotional attachments

Yeah ruin my whole life for 1 reason

And I still can't even say the reason out loud because Ik what would happen

But hey atleast I've still got my ukulele and my electronics

Hey addy.

Nobody cares :)

Ik, I'm thankful ☺️