Diary? Idk..

Maybe just maybe

Thoughts filled my head..

Truce playing, music filling my head

I opened the window

The breeze hit me but I was okay

I put my hand out the window

I felt the rain against my hand..

Like a gentle tap

"Hello! Your alive and okay"

Like a small friendly reminder

I stood there for a minuet

then I closed the window again

my small slice of reality..

Just reminded me I'm still here

...

Yeah things are weird rn

My head is fucking pounding

I only slept for three hours today I lost track of time

That was my mistake

Today's moved so fast

And now I'm just sat here music filling my head drowning out thoughts

It's not even that loud..

That's probably why I have a headache

But it's only on half volume

Besides if that's the price to pay for drowning out thoughts I think I'll cope just fine

I'm... so... tired...

I just lie there my eyes closed lights off nothing but my breathing to keep my company

But still no matter how long I lie still, comfortable and safe still can't sleep

Maybe this is the price I pay?

I don't know what I did

But it must've been bad

I do wonder what I did

But hey everyone's seen me smile

And I have 'reasons' to be happy

So I can be left alone..

Is this what I really want?

I need people to notice

No- I want people to notice

But nobody says anything

So I guess I'll just rant to this book

And scream and cry while I'm alone

And I guess everything's normal

Well until it's not again

Anyway have a good day adios