Tuesday, October 6, 2020
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I'm just so tired.
I'm tired all the time it feels like.
I wake up tired, I eat breakfast tired, I get ready with a tired mind, I do school as my brain grows tired, I deal with my family with a tired heart, I lay down on my bed with a tiredness that's seeped into my bones, I go to sleep tired.
It's a cycle, over and over and over again.
Emotionally tired.
Mentally tired.
Physically tired.
Round and round and round it goes.
Do I dare to try to get more sleep though?
No.
During the week, I can't go to sleep much more than I already do and I can't wake up any later than I already do.
Weekends, Saturday I have to get up early so I can get to work and write updates for the next week. Sunday it's just habit to get up early and I can't seem to be able to go back to sleep.
What would it be like, though? To just, sleep in.
To sleep as much as I can?
To wake up refreshed and happy?
To not look in the mirror and wonder how noticeable my bags are to everyone else?
Maybe I should try to get to sleep earlier on Friday nights... maybe that could help.
Stay safe kiddos and don't murder anyone without a valid reason.
Love you <3<3<3
~Ink
