The world collapsed in front of me in one fell swoop, like a gunshot to the heart.
My heartbeat accelerates more and more with anger at the bullshit I've done and my face fills with tears every time I think it's over, she's gone away from me. She is everything to me, I love her, I love her more than myself, more than anything else. Now I don't know what the fuck to do... I just know that I won't give up, I won't let her go, not like this, if it has to end I want it to end well, not bad I don't want an end full of anger, resentment... I don't want any end.
She made me feel emotions I've never felt before. Sensations. She made me feel loved, important to someone. I fell in love with her right away, almost from day one, I just didn't understand it.
I wasted my time on that stupid test of manhood to prove to my friends. I knew that once I got fucked her and showed them the evidence it should be over. They know we only did it once, then they wanted the evidence, I had to send it to them, I had no choice and then Chantal 'revealed' everything.
Stupid me for making her open the messages...
What a dickhead.
I'm still here, with my back against the door, my knees pressed to my chest and my face in my hands. Fuck it. Sitting here crying won't do any good.
I get up and take that fucking phone that screwed up everything and have it ring Jo's number. It rings. The answering machine answers, I decide to leave a message.
«Jo... it's me. Please, please, call me back. I'm ridiculous I know, but call me back!» I look really stupid sobbing into her answering machine, but I don't give a damn right now, I just want her to call me back, and have her back with me...
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FanfictionThey fell in love with each other, a strong and passionate love... but also very fragile. Jo is shocked by what has come to light by accident, and Hero is won over by his own game. After their intense fight, they will separate for a while, they will...
