The troubled Olsen

Chapter 36

Y/N's POV

This exam was really uncomfortable. Sometimes it was even painful. "Y/N, are you experiencing pain?" Dr. Montgomery asked. "Not really but if you do certain things, it's an uncomfortable feeling," I say. "Y/N, could you totally relax for me please. Otherwise this could get painful," she asks me. "I don't think I can relax my body more than this. I guess this will be painful for me then," I say with a sigh.

Sometimes I hate myself for having those ideas. Well I think I can change my mind. "I know something that might help," Tim said and then he kissed me really passionate. I feel my body relaxing and the thing she was doing wasn't too painful. "I'm done lovebirds," doctor Montgomery said as she put the equipment down.

"So did you find out why I miscarried and is it gonna happen again if we start trying?" I ask her. Tim seemed a little surprised by that answer. "You want to start trying?" He asked. "Yes, I thought you wanted that too," I say. "I do, I just wasn't too sure if you wanted to try again after the miscarriage my love," he gave me a kiss on my forehead and Liz became a little awkward. "What's wrong Liz?" I ask. "Nothing. Can we please listen to doctor Montgomery," she says. Oh something is up. I'll ask about it later.

"Thank you for letting me speak too," dr. Montgomery said while she started laughing. "Tell me please," I say getting annoyed. "I'm afraid it was nothing more than bad luck. Maybe a little bit of stress too. I think you should be fine when you will start trying again. It's nothing I can find. You're uterus looks fine and I don't see a medical reason why you will have a problem getting pregnant again," she ends her story. That's good. I can deal with bad luck and stress.

The appointment with dr. Montgomery went well so now I only have to face dr. Turner. "See, you're all good. Now let's go find doctor Turner sweetie," Liz said as she gave me a hug. "Thank you for coming with me too. I need you here," I whisper. "Always," she whispered as she gave me a kiss.

"Y/N, you need to knock on the door. You have to take those steps yourself. You can do this," Liz says as Tim pushes me towards her door. I knock on her door. "Come in," I hear her say. She's friendly but I'm really scared to go in there. "I can't do it, I can't. I'm scared I can't do this," I say to Tim and Liz. "Okay, I'll go in before you. Tim will be behind you. We can do this together," Liz said to me.

"Hey Y/N, I hoped I wouldn't have to see you again. But tell me, how can I help you?" She asked me. All I could do was shake my head and I sat down on Lizzie's lap. I was so scared. "I can't tell her. I failed her," I whisper. "She lost her baby a few days ago. She hasn't been feeling well since. Lizzie was scared Y/N might take an overdose and she didn't disagree with Lizzie. We hope you could help us," Tim said on my behalf. I was so grateful to have him in my life.

"I prefer Y/N telling me herself but I understand why you told me. But Y/N, could you tell me why you're here and what is the thing you need help with," she asked me.

I stayed on Lizzie's lap. I didn't wanna move because I felt safe. "Tell her sweetie," I hear Liz whisper in my ear. "Ever since I miscarried again I feel like I fail as a mom. Evie started hitting me. She was just hungry all the time so she got mad. Scarlett found out for us because I was too much of a wrack to take care of my children. I wanted to take an overdose the last few days almost constantly. I didn't do it because I have children who count on me. I got the all clear in my medic exam, but I can't fix this on my own," I say. After that I burry my face in Lizzie's neck and hair.

Lizzie's POV

Y/N fell asleep on me. Her face buried in my neck and hair. "She fell asleep, I am so sorry. Today is just a lot I guess. But what is your plan of treatment?" I ask dr. Turner. "For now I want to give her something to sleep better and just talking. If that doesn't help I wil start her on some anti-depressants. I hope I don't have to because she can't take these if she gets pregnant. I hope the talking will help. Otherwise I might have to tell her she can't get pregnant before she's doing better," dr. Turner said to me.

"I don't think she'll agree with that doctor Turner. She's stubborn and she knows what she wants and right now. That's a baby," Tim said. I was glad he fought for her just like I do. "Then we have to get there with talking. That'd be our only option then," dr. Turner said to us. Y/N is waking up because she starts to move really much. "Auch Y/N. You're on my lap. I have feelings and I feel pain you little idiot. "Mhm I'm sorry," she said mumbling as she still was half asleep. "Y/N, could you please wake up. We're in doctor Turner's office. We were having a conversation about you," I say to her.

"Oh crap. Why didn't you wake me up?" She asks a little annoyed. "You were exhausted baby. You fell asleep on me and I couldn't wake you up. So we had a little conversation about your plan of treatment. We can discuss it with you too. Nothing is decided yet. You're a grown up woman so you can make your own decisions," I say as I kiss her in her hair.