I need you, I need you, I need you

chapter 103-stargirl

February 14th, 2020
Rachel's p/v
I open my eyes. Tyler and Jasmine are sitting on the foot of my bed. Jasmine gets up and opens the curtains. Tyler pulls out a box from his jacket pocket and sits closer to me.
"You were born at 12:12 am. I wanted to give you this at that time but my mother didn't let me. Happy birthday, precious girl." Tyler kisses my cheek and places the box in my hands. I open it, revealing a heart shaped ring. I take it out and put it on my ring finger.
"I love it, angel. Thank you so much."
"That's not all, but I'll let Jasmine give you her gift next."
I sit up and fix my hair. Tyler sits next to me and nuzzles his nose into my cheek.
"Your real gift is coming later, this is just a little something from me and my mom." Jasmine picks up a big box and opens it. Tyler pulls out a lighter from his pocket and lights the one six candle on the small cake. Jasmine walks closer to me and hovers it front of me.
"Make a wish."
I close my eyes. My wish is for me to only cry tears of joy at my party. I blow out the candles. Tyler and Jasmine cheer.
"This is so lovely. Thank you guys, I appreciate it so much. What time is it? Did Darry let you in?"
"Mary did," Jasmine answers, "I texted her last night."
"That's sweet of her."
"Yeah. Well, I hate to leave and miss out on Tyler's awesome gift but I have a driving lesson. I'll see you at the venue bright and early so I can help out."
"Don't feel obligated to rush, but thanks anyways." I sit up straight and hug her.
"I love you, beauty. See you guys soon!" Jasmine grabs her purse and walks out of my room.
"Does your house have air conditioning? I'm burning up."
"No, the AC broke a few days ago. It's so breezy outside but the heat in here is insane. I'm sweating like crazy, even with a tank top underneath."
"Take off your hoodie then."
"It's comfy though. I'll take it off later."
"Baby, I don't want you to overheat. Even I'm taking off my jacket. You sure you're alright?"
"Mhm! I don't have anything under my hoodie, that's why I don't want to take it off."
"But you just said you have a tank top underneath."
"Bra, tank top, same thing."
"There's no other reason why you don't want to take it off? Remember, love," he holds my hands, "you can tell me anything."
"It's a little embarrassing."
"I will never ever judge you. If you don't want to tell me I understand but remember that I'm always here for you."
"I want to show you but only because I need to feel validated."
"Lay it on me."
I slowly take off my hoodie. Tyler's eyes dart at my arms. He caresses my cheek as I start to tear up.
"Love, what made you do this to yourself."
"Darry made me feel worthless. He took Mary home without asking me if it was ok. He never passes up an opportunity to bring me down and bring her up. I turned to hurting myself. Everyone was shocked that I forgave Mary because I am so immature. I saw myself as disgusting, so I wanted to punish myself for it. I slit my wrists even more. I wore a jacket in my picture with Mary to cover them up. Am I dramatic?"
"No no no, you're not dramatic at all. You're also not immature. I was surprised you forgave Mary just because of everything she's done to you. But like I told you, you are so strong and understanding. If you feel disgusting or worthless please call your therapist. You don't have to punish yourself for things that aren't true. It's hard to surpass negative thoughts, but not impossible."
"I ruined my skin. Foundation can cover these marks but once it's off I'm reminded of how weak I am."
"Your scars do not make you weak, just a human being with feelings. How can I comfort you?"
"Just kiss me anywhere. I don't feel pretty at all."
Tyler starts kissing the scars on my left arm. I look up and blink my tears away. He kisses my cheek and wraps his arms tightly around me. I did say only tears of joy at the party, not at this house.

Audrey's p/v
"Happy Valentine's, babe. I'll see you at 3." Callum kisses my cheek and walks out his bedroom. I flip my hair and stare at the window. I miss my home so much. Callum begs me to sleep over his house but I just want to see my mom in the mornings again. The only thing calling my name is Instagram. My escape from this cruel reality.

Heath is back on Instagram. The first post I got is his. It's a collection of random photos, but the last one is a photo of Piper. Is she his Valentine?