I need you, I need you, I need you

chapter 132-air

March 31st, 2020
Rachel's p/v
Jacob and I finished planning the parent day event at around 3 am. We got side tracked and started talking about other things. Tyler has no reason to know.

But I do feel like I'm living in a lie. I don't want him to be like Jacob. It's Tyler who I am in love with, and nothing is going to change that. But I just wish Tyler appreciated everything he has. It's not my job to open his eyes. If he doesn't want to, then that's his problem.

Today's outfit is simple. Declan and I are hanging out in the park so I picked out a park appropriate outfit. Dark blue t-shirt with a yellow graphic, grey low rise small flare pants, black docs, silver star ring, and my blue/white floral hobo style bag. I get to call the bag mine.

Mary's p/v
What do you wear when you want to confess your love to your boyfriend? My outfit needs to catch his attention. A lil 90s look can never go wrong. And since Rachel helped me clean out my closet and drawers, everything is nicely organized.

Free People white linen cotton cropped wrap blouse with brown wooden buttons, brown high waisted gingham mini skirt, white long socks, dark brown platform loafers, and a dark brown leather long strap purse. I even crimped my hair and added gold leaf hair clips. A warmer eyeshadow and brown lip liner. I need to learn how to put eye contacts in. That'll be a game changer.

Rachel's p/v
Ok, Tyler will be here any second now. I haven't been this nervous to see him since we kissed at Isiah's party. As long as he doesn't give me a reason to get mad then we're all good.

"Hi."
I turn around. "Hi."
We go for a hug at the same time. Tight.
"How did you sleep?"
Loose.
"Good. Got all the energy I needed."
"That's good," he pulls away, "I um, there's a surprise waiting for you after school. Well in choir more like it."
"I also have a surprise, well two surprises. Do you want to walk to class now?"
"Sure."
We start walking. I don't know how we thought everything could go back to normal. The birds aren't chirping this morning.

Jasmine's p/v
Baby steps. I don't have to blur it out, this can come out naturally. After all, Nina deserves to be treated like a princess. She's made me feel like one ever since we got partnered for choir.

"What you reading there?" I sit next to her on the grass.
"Flipped. You convinced me to read it."
"But you don't like romance novels."
"Well I can't always read depressing philosophical shit. Too many old men spitting their 'sermon'."
"Let me know if it's worth taking a break from the old men. Maybe over dinner this Saturday?"
"Yeah, I'm down. I'll update you on if I make it past chapter five."
I laugh...a little too hard. I flash her a smile. She grins and darts her eyes to my...lips? Thank God I gave myself a week to prepare. She almost convinced me to give her a kiss.

Mary's p/v
I want to sleep away brunch so I can talk to Darry. He hasn't seen me yet, and that's a tragedy. I can always skip class and go to his brunch but my father would forbid me from buying more Harley Davidson t-shirts. They don't fit in my dresser so I started hanging them in his closet. This is why Darry and I belong together. We're hoarders and VERY afraid to admit it.

I'm not paying attention to Jenna...for what? Because Darry and I don't act like a couple? Even though we both agreed that it has to be that way? Our first I love You's need to be special. I can't just say it. I'll ask him out to dinner. An "I'm in love with you" right before dessert. Sort of like the ring in the cake except I only have $75 to my name.

Drake's p/v
Freddy and I are...private? Dating? Dating in private? What does this mean, like are we just having sex in the locker room? When I told Jasmine I was going to clear things up with him, I didn't think to address these questions. Now I'm looking around the quad, wondering if Freddy is nearby.
"Looking for someone?"
"What? No, I was just-"
"There goes the woman of the year. Give him a power tool and he'll drop it for his hand cream."
"Sebastian, cut it out. What's it to you if Freddy likes guys?"
"First of all, it's wrong. Second of all, they all harass normal men. I can get trapped in the locker room-"
I start coughing. Sebastian pats my back.
"What if you're not Freddy's type."
"They don't have a type as long as-"
"Sebastian, I don't want to hear it."
"Whatever."