You Drew Stars Around my Scars - Taylor Swifts Daughter

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Kassie pov

I feel tears rolling down my eyes as I place the test on the counter.

I leaned against the wall and then slowly started to slide down

More tears begin to slide down my cheeks and I place my head between my knees.

I feel stupid

Why would I ever have sex at fifteen?

Why would I get drunk to unconsciousness without my friends to take care of me?

When mom finds out she's gonna kill me, she's usually very lenient with me but this time I crossed the line

I really fucked up

I suddenly have to throw up and I scooch over to the toilet. Once I've poured out the last contents of my stomach I get up and brush my teeth.

I feel disgusting

My stomach feels like I've been punched in the gut

I look at myself in the mirror and see that my eyes are so puffy and red. I definitely don't look attractive right now but I'm more lost in my thoughts to care about that

Suddenly my phone begins to ring and I get startled by the noise.

I reach for my phone and turn off the timer.

I pick up the pregnancy test from the counter and take a deep breath before I flip it over.

Negative

I sigh once again

"Oh my god I'm not pregnant" I whisper to myself

I feel a wave of relief hit me and I cry of happiness.

I check the time on my phone and see that I only have a few minutes until mom comes back.

"Shit" I say to myself realizing I have to get rid of the evidence before my mom gets back or else she'll know I had sex.

I grab everything and toss it in my purse, we're going out to dinner tonight I'll throw it out at the restaurant.

As soon as I drop my purse a wave of nausea takes over me once again and run to the bathroom.

I'm hunched over the toilet when I hear the door open and I start gagging once again

"Kassie what's wrong baby?" My mom says as she kneels next to me I turn to look at her but don't say a word and I have to throw up again

At this point my throw up is just bile.

My mom rubs my back in circles while I let it all out

"I'll run you a warm bath okay"

I nod still hunched over the toilet in case I have to throw up again.

After my bath I lay in bed next to my mom.

She puts her phone on the nightstand and hugs me.

"You feel a little warm, I'm canceling dinner plans tonight" she says and texts my grandparents who we were having dinner with

"Come here" she says pulling me closer and laying my head on her chest as she rubs my back until I fall asleep