You Drew Stars Around my Scars - Taylor Swifts Daughter

t h i r t y - f i v e

Kas pov

I wake up to my moms arms around me

My eyes burn from all I've cried

"How are you feeling hun?"

I look at her and give her a weak smile

"Better" I nod

Which is not a complete lie, I still feel dirty, but I feel better

"I'm glad baby" she says squeezing me tighter "do you mind sharing what's been troubling you?"

I shake my head

"That's okay baby, whenever you're ready okay?" She says placing a kiss on my head "I'm sorry for yelling at you, I-"

"It's okay, I get it, i haven't exactly been behaving the best lately I'm sorry"

She places kisses on my head over and over which I know she sometimes does when she cries and tries to hide it from me.

"What do you want to do today hun? Tree managed to push back the shows a few days"

"I just want to lay in bed"

"Ok I'm gonna order us breakfast okay? What do you want to eat"

"I'm not hungry"

"You have to eat, at least a few bites okay? Your dad said you haven't been eating much"

"I just haven't been hungry"

"Can you at least eat a few bites?"

I nod

I only have a few bites from the oatmeal before i remember what happened and I get too disgusted to keep eating.

I spend the entire day in bed with mom, without being interrupted by anyone

The next day I wake up feeling a lot better, but still get startled at my dad hugging me in the morning

"Kas, you okay?" He asks knowing I got scared

"Yeah, sorry, just a little startled"

"I'm sorry" he says and reaches over to grab my hand but I back away

"Honey do you want us to watch a movie while eat breakfast?" Mom asks

I shake my head

"I want to be alone for a while"

But that's not true, I don't want to be left alone, I do want to watch movies, but in my room with mom and Carla only

It kind of hurts to be near dad and Travis but I don't want it to, I miss hugging my dad

"Ok, I'll go check on you right now okay?"

I nod and go to my room

I just stare at the ceiling, I wish they could know what was going on without me having to say it, it hurts to try to say it

Mom knocks on my door and walks in

"Are you feeling better baby?"