You Drew Stars Around my Scars - Taylor Swifts Daughter

f i f t y - s i x

"Alright well I've got to go but if you need anything just call me okay sweetie?" Dad says hugging me and placing a kiss on my head "and if you need me to talk to your mom just tell me and I will"

I just nod

"Love you Kassie"

"Love you too dad" I say before he leaves

I go upstairs and take a quick shower and finally change out of last nights clothes, I don't have the time or energy to pick out a nice outfit so I just wear some baggy jeans, a graphic tee that's a little big and my dunks.

I don't have the energy to straighten my hair like I usually do but I had to wash it so I just end up Dutch braiding it.

I grab a baseball cap and sunglasses from my closet to wear, if I was going to be forced to go out then at least I could hide myself in pictures a little

I didn't want them to see my red and puffy eyes, fans would assume the worst like always

I grab my phone to text Sam about mom, she's really the only person that I tell everything my mom does; except for the Christmas situation, and she's the only person I've told about Diego.

I know I can trust her to not tell a single soul.

I hear a car pull up in the driveway and I get out of bed to check, and sure enough moms here to pick me up

I wish she would leave

And not because I don't love her or because I don't want to spend time with her

I love my mom very much

But sometimes it feels like she doesn't love me back

And today is one of those days

I wish she cared enough to let me rest

Because the last thing I need right now is to be out at Disneyland with a crowd of people following us with their phones

I just want to stay in bed and cry myself out

There doorbell rings but I don't open it immediately

Let her wait

I go into my closet and still change out my purse and grab a jacket just in case and I go downstairs

I open the front door and there's my mom and her phone

"Hey!" She smiles looking up from her phone "what took you so long?" She asks, placing her phone in her back pocket

I just shrug and stare at her

But then Astro decides to get out

"Astro, inside!" I say and Astro immediately obeys, he's the most obedient out of the dogs, Apollo would have me chasing him through the front lawn

"Hey, before we leave, maybe we could get Wyatt out of the car so she can meet the dogs" she smile

"No mom!"

"But she was really excited, she really wanted to meet them"

"I don't care! Now let's go" I say

The sooner we leave, the sooner we'll get this over with

I get in the car with mom and Travis, slamming the car door

Jason and his family are in the car behind

Travis is driving, mom decided she didn't need the drivers today, but she still has the security with her in a different car.

I don't want to talk to mom and Travis so I put my headphones in and blast music to not hear them

When I see Travis park the car I put my headphones away and place them in my purse because I know I'll need them later

Mom turns around and smiles

"I was trying to talk to you but you couldn't hear me, how loud did you have those headphones on sweetie?"

I shrug

"Next time lower the volume a little hun, I don't want you to hurt your ears, come on let's go"

I put on my baseball cap and sunglasses before I get out of the car and take a deep breath

Here we go

"Kassie!" Wyatt yells as soon as I get out

"Hi" I say, I don't want to be rude to her, she's not at fault for anything happening in my life right now, but I'm just not in the mode to pretend to be all happy and cheery today

"My mommy saw your doggie" she yells excitedly

"She was asleep, so I was telling her your dog got out when we picked you up" Kylie says

I just smile at her

I don't want to talk to anyone

I walk behind the group and soon mom stays behind to walk by my side

She places her arms around me as we continue to walk

"What wrong?" she asks

I just shake my head, my sunglasses make a pretty good job at hiding the fact that my eyes are getting teary

"Hun I know something's wrong, you haven't said a word to me since we left, what's wrong?"

I shake my head again

"Kas I know something's wrong, but I'm not a mind reader, I can't help you if you don't speak to me"

"Just leave me alone" I say "like you always do" I mutter under my breath "that's all I need"

My mom looks a little shocked

"You know what Kassandra I don't know what to do with you anymore, anytime something's bothering you, I try, I try to be there for you, but then you ask for time alone and I give it to you and you get mad that I leave, when you're ready to tell me what's wrong, I'll be right in front of you" she sasses and leaves to walk in front of me and takes Travis hand

Of course

Of course she'd rather be with her boyfriend

If it was Carla, she would've assured me everything would be okay, even if she had no clue what was going on, and then after I'd ask to be alone she'd probably hug me and leave me be for a few minutes before she came back to talk to me and make sure everything was okay.

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