You Drew Stars Around my Scars - Taylor Swifts Daughter

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"Are you excited mom?"

"I am" she says smiling

"I'm proud of you"

"Thank you for saying that baby" she says holding my hand

We're about to walk the red carpet in a few minutes and she can tell I'm nervous because my leg is shaking

I've done this countless of times before but I know today people are going to notice something was wrong because of the scar on my chin and I was still having some trouble with my jaw and the swifties there were bound to notice and I knew how they were, they weren't going to let this go. I'm surprised we were able to hide this under the radar for as long as we have

"It's gonna be fine sweetie" my mom says hugging me

"I know, I'm just a little nervous" I say

"Come on, guys you guys are up"

"Coming tree"

We get a few photos of just my mom and some of my mom and I.

I'm wearing a white backless dress and moms wearing a blue gown. She looks gorgeous, if I was still five I'd think she was a Disney princess.

I go with mom to take pictures with fans

No one comments on my scar because it's rude to point stuff out to people in person but I know it will be a topic later online

I interact with a few fans, a lot of them compliment my makeup and some of them give me friendship bracelets

I follow my mom closely behind as she takes pictures and signs autographs.

"Come on" my mom says taking my hand when it's time to go inside.

I wait for my mom while she goes in to every movie theater to thank everyone and only go with her at the last theater because that's where we're staying to watch the movie.

After her speech we sit down and the movie begins, we're both singing and dancing. We're having a great time.

"I'm going to the restroom" I whisper to my mom before I head out and go to the private restroom so I don't have to see anyone.

I check my phone before going back. I answer one of Sam's texts and then go on Twitter.

My feed is full of people talking about my scar and even people zooming in on pictures that I took with fans earlier to see my scar more clearly.

Thats all people are talking about. I keep scrolling and see more people talking about how skinny I am. I lost at least 10 pounds, maybe even more from the liquid diet. I am also someone who struggles with gaining weight, I have a fast metabolism so gaining weight takes time.

It hurts that people are talking about my weight and assuming the worst.

I feel tears running down my cheeks as I read more tweets about people criticizing me.

I stay there a few minutes and then wipe my tears.

I take a detour and take a shot of tequila from the bar.

"Can you fill up one of those cups?" I say pointing to the stack of cups behind him

He nods and hands me a cup full of tequila with no chaser and I slide him some money.

I go back and sit with mom with my alcohol which she thinks is soda.

"Are you okay? You took a while" she asks noticing I'm not in the same mood I was before I left

"Yeah I'm okay"

The red era is barely starting on the screen when I come back

Moms super hyped up and im trying to match her energy so that she doesn't notice something is wrong but i obviously don't hide it that well